5am and we meet again

and i am up
i waited three hours to come down cause i am a good wife and didn't want to wake my hardworking long suffering husband

i could NOT sleep again

yup worry
will the wood get stacked in time
will the pens be put up in time
will the studio get ready to heat
will the new babies get too warm in here
will i have enough $ in the checking account to get layer pellets for the chickens and ducks today
will bernie figure out the dryer issue
will bernie outlive me ( i sure hope so)
will bernie continue being healthy as he does work with diesel and smokes
will we have enough wood for winter
will it be a hard winter
will my ducks be ok

i got the wills alrighty

it's too close to heating now....which is apparently about a week away
last weekend was raining so nothing winter related got done

now it's a good thing i put up the food i did put up as last night some of that saved our necks, being i was too tired to get supper..... but since i'd put up food already it was a simple throw together and heat dinner
nothing like making your own convience foods huh?
i even had cooked already for the chickens

good thing cause i crashed.....HARD at 5pm
and here i am 5 AM and i am up
and the coffee is ready

i've been having spells where my legs hurt......... like as if i've run a marathon, only i haven't
and i am tired.............so tired that moving my painful legs exhausts me
my arms hurt like that too
last week i had a few days like that, i could NOT move if my life depended on it
i don't know how i got the ducks in and out
i also don't know what it was
i am like that a bit right now and last night.....not quite as bad but still lethergic and tired

i do know i don't like being that way
as i miss spending a lot of time with my ducks
and outside in the fresh air
and i also miss being very busy
plus i have way too much to do to sit around cause my legs won't move

maybe i need hypnosis to get past this?