i need to see things in my brain and bring that out- down my arms and through my fingers
it's a real need
even eating will take second place to creating
when the muse descends i can forget (and do forget) everything
i forget to do chores (except animal chores)
i forget to eat
to take breaks
all that matters is what is coming out.....the struggle of something new being born
once born i am interested in it for a short time
but then put it away for 'later'
when 'later' comes, i am more often then not surprised at what i see!
i don't remember all the little details although i was THERE
i CREATED THEM
i don't remember!
i have often wondered if that is part of the process...... as it comes through a human?
it's also why i am beginning to think that it isn't all me doing it
somehow something, which i will call the muse, works with me and through me
and a lot of times something amazing happens
it's almost like an addiction as well, because when i haven't been creating for a bit (like right now) i get unsettled, bored, depressed, life seems to lose it's luster, it's meaning and it's purpose.
i rattle around, unsure what to do with myself
my fingers need to be doing SOMETHING
my mind needs to be challenged
and i get into a very bad bad mood
now all this being said...
i have work to do
i am going to get off the laptop and wander over to my drafting table
i may draw
i would like to make some thing too.....maybe an ornament?
maybe an object?
i wouldn't mind bookbinding, that is always fun
making a box out of fabrics and cardboard is fun too
or possibly a pop up paper theater?
a cloth doll? with a trunk and wardrobe?
a tiny candy house made out of clay?
the possibilities are endless and fascinating.......
the hard part is choosing and starting