Saturday, October 25, 2008

a perspective i agree with

this is what i think of when the market 'crashes'
i remember in 87 when we bought this house......right after in october there was a 'market' crash
i remember calling my dad........
'dad, we just bought a house, the market crashed........are we going to be ok'

dad said........
honey the market crashes all the'll come back
and yes of was right
and it did

now dad was born in 1911, lived through the great depression, the crash of 29
and innumerable other recessions.......
he was not a dumb man by any stretch...........
he was right then
and he's right now


Thursday, October 23, 2008

Some things are just priceless

Today, as every day…..i went to take the duckies and falstaff out to the duck pen
The girls were jumping up and down in their inside crate to be let out
Falstaff of course was in his crate in the wheelbarrow ready to go down the hill.
Normally I put falstaff in the back part of the duck pen, then carry one baby at a time out to the front part of the duck pen…….talking and kissing them good morning

Today I knew I had to carry 5 gallon buckets of water out to the pen for them to bath, since Bernie turned the outside water off ( due to frosts) and I can’t reach to turn it on.

So I told the girls……………..
Ok TODAY, you all can walk on your own 6 feets

Opened their door and turned to wheel falstaff down the hill……..
I hear flapping wings behind me
All 3 girls are flying to catch up with me……. They landed right behind me
And waited while I put falstaff in his pen
Then single file……one after another walked into their pen

I was laughing so hard at them

But I still had their water to do
So I started back up the hill…..only to hear flying behind me…..
3 little duckies following me…….

I put them back in their pen and closed the door so I could get their pond filled

After we all bathed………( except Phoebe didn’t wash her wings and remember they splash so much i get all wet too)
I let falstaff out to bath, and took the girls for a walk around the yard…..
We sampled frozen green beans
And fresh berries…..
And some quackgrass seeds
And some dirt
And gravel
ALL of utmost interest to duckies……

When they seemed to have had enough……..we all wandered back to the pen…..
Falstaff took himself to the back pen
And phoebe walked in…… cleo and lilliana hung around the door, waiting to be picked up and carried but ALL went back into the pen

I swear I love them duckies

In other news
I got my first tick of the winter heating season last night………on my NECK
Little bugger didn’t want to come out
I swear he drilled in me 45 miles or so
It was one of them deer ticks…..i hate ticks of all kinds but those are even worse.

So it took a while but with lanacane and needle nose pliers…..
I got a hole in my neck BIGGER then the whole damn tick was
He’s out

Thank goodness

However it hurts like hell……..still……..

Til next time

Ps since I am typing this in word it automatically puts in capitals……no I didn’t suddenly grow longer less painful fingers………

Just so you all know…….

Wednesday, October 22, 2008


*******$150G From GOP For Fashions For Palins?
RNC Said To Have Shelled Out At Least That Much For "Campaign Accessories" For Family

This pisses me off big time

i thought we were BEYOND the 'wanna be barbie when we grow up' thing


so now we got Palin.....stilletto heels and tight red skirts

is THAT the presidential vp picture we want to be sending?

'our vp is a tart'?

OOPS......... mccain drops dead and palin invades VOGUE?


didn't we as woman work really really hard for really really long to be taken SERIOUSLY.....and not as a sexual object

or was i mistaken?

early fall for real

well this weekend past we got our first real frost
monday or tuesday we got a killing frost
my poor little garden

i brought in some plants i couldn't bear to see die
an eggplant
a few peppers

i am wondering if i can possibly lift the wood we got out there to make some hoop houses
or cold frames
no use waiting for bernie
he's ALWAYS at work
i tease him that he's got another wife ( his cell phone.......)
AND a whole 'nother family........( his fleet)

i realized last night i need to deal with the firewood hauling in a better way
so i used a luggage cart to wheel in some off the deck
but i am going to have to get the log carrier from plow and hearth i think, with the 20" wheels
that will go up the front stairs
and up the hill from the woodpile

i am so sorry now that i didn't make him stack out front........
he was afraid someone would steal it
i am thinking...........
i'll take my chances

i had to bath one of the duckies in the basement sink yesterday
she was filthy
falstaff was all over the three of them and what a muddy mess they were

so lilianna was the worst of the lot.....she went in the sink
phoebe has me worried as her feather texture has changed.......
softer and not water repellant
lili and cleo are still water repellant so i am wondering about phoebe

now when i go into the pen
the girls gather around my feet and greet me while nibbling at my pants, boots, and inside my boots as well
they don't hurt
they also like to play with the strings on my barn jacket

they crack me up

we have chicks ordered, so soon i will be raising more orpingtons
we don't have eggs!
can you believe this
all the poultry around eggs

now i don't want the ducks laying right now as it's too cold
but i do expect the house chickens to lay

in fiber news
i am knitting browns, deep reds and yellows
i am also knitting a yellow lace scarf to attach them to
there are beads that could be involved as well..........
red ones......

if i get to the store ever again......

beads the color of bittersweet berries as well

are you all ready for winter?

i hope so

i still don't feel ready.......but we probably are

til next time


Tuesday, October 21, 2008

There is a lot going on in the world………

So very much turmoil and uncertainty
I am reasonably sure that once November 8th comes and goes a lot of the upheaval will settle down.
I am also reasonably sure that the next white house will be democratic
I am basing this on a global need for our stock market to settle down…..which historically it does very well under a democratic white house

‘May you live in interesting times”
I don’t remember who said this……wait let me google……AHHHHH it is an ancient Chinese proverb and curse! ( thank goodness for google)

I would say that right now…….THESE are ‘interesting times’
A historic election, showing the inner workings of the collective mind of America.
either way it goes a first will happen

a woman in high power or a 'black' man
( remember this man is biracial, which seems fitting to ease america into the idea of a race other then white in office)

in my personal opinion........
i am not sure which if any candidate is suited for office during these times
but one WILL be elected
and one will serve

i do expect that one will be democrat.........if nothing more then to calm the waters

i am also expecting that this democrat........most likely will surprise a LOT of folks
and MAY actually be effective!
at least i so hope

now along with this
the energy crisis..... brought sharply into view due to heating costs
higher food prices

this hits home to the average american in a way perhaps a problem in a global sense may not
as we have traditionally had relatively reasonable costs for our food
if not our heating

i don't know the answers
i do know for us.....
we put by more food
we heat with wood ( yes there are increased costs there as well but not as bad as oil, which is what we heated with formerly)

however i worry about later......when i am older
as this mostly falls on my shoulders
bernie helps stack the loads of wood
but i mostly have to worry about day to day bringing in and keeping the stove stoked

i also am extremely worried right now about our sheep and goat
due to local zoning
we can't have them here
but also due to the economy and other issues i won't go into
i have a need to move them from where they are
i want them home

or alternatively, and perhaps better long term
i want to move and bring them with me to a larger property
with more room for growing food

this has been keeping me up nights lately

i can't find a solution easily to my livestock dilemma
which in the scheme of things is not earth shattering
i guess i shouldn't hold my breath waiting for "them' to find a solution to the global problems facing ALL of us living on the earth

i can't help but wonder if what we aren't the growing pains of a new possibly united global era and society?

an actual chance at utopia?


never happen


Monday, October 20, 2008


as always rhinebeck is beautiful
the fall leaves......the hedgerow berries ( i saw american bittersweet, but on private property.....or it would be on my front DOOR right now)

there seemed to me to be a few less vendors this year.....and some of the vendors had a lot less product.....
or maybe i was wrong....but that is what seemed to me

i naturally started rhinebeck with a stop at Spirit Trail where two orphaned skeins followed me home, one mixed yellows/pale oranges in merino lace
and one mixed blues in silk......
how the blue one happened i will never know!........but i got a blue skein to think of something for

golding had more spindles.........i love those one of a kind ones....with the bracelets etc
i saw one in purple that was to die for
i saw Kathryn Alexander Designs kits at Carolina homespun, and if it had not been so expensive..... ($330 for the pullover which i loved) i would have asked for it for christmas, in medium pastels of rainbow colors

i saw the tsock tsarina booth and the 'vintage' sock i lust after......
which i didn't get as it won't really fit over my calfs.....even if i enlarge it
and what a waste as i won't see and enjoy it......
although that heel shaping she has in this sock intrigues me to no end

she does have a leaf only kit which i should have gotten......and didn't ( kick me repeatedly please)
i thought all the way home......
gee i could make those leaves and put them on a scarf or mittens or even a hat so that i could enjoy them.......

i got a hat block for needled felted hats

and i got nordic felted knits

which has a felted coat

i wore my black and gray color work hat......
it was pretty cold and windy and i am so glad i did
i also got a few compliments on it!
which i was shocked about as it is so very quiet for color knitting
nothing flashy about it
but it is my favorite hat

it was horribly cold when we tried to eat out picnic lunch
so we didn't eat much
but the hot chocolate i brought was a hit with bernie
he also liked the brownies i baked him........
but never ate the ravioli salad

if i had wheels, i would have ran to town friday and gotten a wide mouth thermos and brought stew or something as well

for some odd reason we didn't sleep at all the night before......
so we both were very very tired and didn't really recover all weekend
and neither of us slept last night either!

heating season is upon us
sort of late this year
and i am really only using the stove evenings and over night
it's getting up to the 50's in the day so i let the stove go out
it was nice getting home from rhinebeck to a warm house
even though the stove was out and nothing but a few embers were alive inside

the ducks survived the day in the basement but were NOT happy
when we got home
all the girls were out of their pen.......cleo was in the crate with falstaff
lilianna and phoebe were wandering around ( and FLYING occationally) the basement
they were very happy to see me

i have to laugh as they greet falstaff and me about the same way.......
they don't greet bernie like that

i hand carry each girl in and out
bernie said......'why , just put them in the crate and wheel them in and out'

that is the best time
i hold my ducks
i look into their eyes
i kiss them
rub their bills
examine them
watch their feet
and just enjoy them
i live for that.................

til next time


Thursday, October 16, 2008

October 15

I was talking to bob ( Azknitter’s) husband. ( for you folks that are fiber people from KR or Ravelry)
Saturday is not only Rhinebeck……
which trish and bob were to attend this year WITH us
But also the memorial service where the organ donor’s families meet the recipients.

I find that so ironic
Bob is going to meet the folks that got a reprieve because of our trish

( if anyone doubts how great our trish is……….. she gave the ultimate gift……the gift of herself to save so many other lives)

Bob and I were talking about this a bit ago
( I am actually typing this in word on October 14, which is why you will see capitalization)
We both discussed how ironic we found it
I said…( being ever so blunt………but that is part of my earthy charm……no?)
‘well trish will manage to be in two places at once……
since she doesn’t have a body to slow her down anymore’

But you all have no idea how I wish she were here with us and going to Rhinebeck
Bob sent me a ton of her things……..
wonderful goodies I always wanted ( specialized tools etc)
But not from trish……
I want TRISH here using her goodies and letting me borrow them

Not a day goes by when I don’t have a billion things to tell her
I would like to hear what she has to say about this……
or that……….

After all these months……
the loss of trish is even greater then before
I could pretend before that she was on a trip or something

So the excitement of Rhinebeck is bittersweet with knowing my friend……
who SHOULD be with us there
AND planned on being there with us
Will be there in spirit……….
And she better BE there in spirit……..
sitting on my shoulder……

You hear that trish?

Or I will haunt your ass in heaven………..
rest in peace MY ASS
I will nag the crap out of you…….
and burp in your heavenly EAR………

I loves ya kid…….
and I so very much wish that you would be walking Rhinebeck with us

Your friend


Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Rhinebeck is Saturday!!! tis that time of year!

I am planning a picnic lunch
I am thinking……. Ravioli salad
Chicken salad on homemade rolls
I am thinking of maybe a fruit salad for desert
Oatmeal cookies
And brownies
Maybe pumpkin muffins or pumpkin roll?
How about some gator aide
And water
And what else?
Something else to drink and nibblies……….
What for nibblies…..???
Bernie won’t eat trail mix
But what else is there
No candy

Ok my Rhinebeck shopping list is books this time
Mostly books that have felted jackets/ coats in them
I probably will get them from knitpicks as that is cheaper
But I would like to look at the books
I have visions of a nice felted wool coat, with needle felting on it
Maybe flowers and vines? A couple beads here and there?
A STATEMENT coat for my little round body
Or maybe a colorknit hat or mitten kit……..

I need to get some cash as well I think……..about 30 bucks? Maybe 40
OHOOHOH I finally found my ball winder
Actually BERNIE found it for me
Isn’t that wonderful!
Mine is a royal………. It’s red and white!
I think the new ones are turquoise now

Of course there will be a stop at Spirit trail………
I am thinking that is the highlight of Rhinebeck.
I hope I can afford a skein of silk……..
you know it will be some nice reds/russets etc…..

I wished I could have a golding spindle or one of them new square spindles
But probably not…… it’s ok though I don’t NEED it…………
I have almost everything I need…….fleece, a wheel, dyes, yarns……..needles and tools
So it is really just the visiting and seeing what’s new and all…….
And TRADITION………. Let’s not forget that
The TRADITION of it all
Oh and maybe……….. a doughnut……..

Saturday, October 11, 2008

sometimes i just can't be bothered

i recently ran across a yahoo group that sounded interesting to me
i joined............

i tried to participate in discussions.......

only to find out that the owner was a super control freek, who didn't appreciate ANYONE other then herself answering questions
asking was had a 50/50 shot at her answering you

but ANSWERING was next to murder in this group

needless to say i quietly backed out..........
and left

what is it about the net and about people that brings this out of them?

i don't get it

what is so wrong with a free exchange?

i often wonder about people who do things like they realize how they look to outsiders

do they realize that their innermost insecurities are out there for all the world (who cares to bother looking........most don't give a shit) to see

the more i see things like this the more i tend to like my animals
they shit on can compost it for the garden
you sort of know where you stand with them

if they like you
they stay by you
if they don't they tend to bite you




straight foreward..........

there is no mistaking their meaning

thank goodness for simplicity............

til next time


Friday, October 10, 2008

golden days and blue eyed duckies

well indian summer is here
farewell to the warm weather and biting insects.......( yeah like i will miss eye is still swollen from that bug bite)
i am taking the duckies and putting them in the moveable pen during the day
today i am going to move it down a bit, and they will have fresh graze

it is such a pleasure to see them now

i find myself going out there when i need a break from work
they waddle up to the pen gate and wag their tails and bob their heads

all three want thier hugs and kisses

i can pick them up and cuddle them and kiss them

sometimes i pick them up to eye level facing me
and they look into my eyes in amazement

they are very gentle for the most part
just watch your fingers if you feed them berries
they are pretty good.....but i mean.......COME ON


all in all sweet little ducks

they are appearing to be named

lilliana for the one that is the most mom oriented (also has the most carunkling as well)
cleo for the middle one......
and phoebe for the more standoffish one that is coming around though
oh and she has a booboo on her bill......... we don't know how she got it

i wish you all sweet and tame blue eyed duckies......

they will sooth your soul

til next time

Monday, October 06, 2008

little duckies're the ones.......***

*** to paraphrase the muppets.........

ok so.......we got three little tame duckies now
good little duckies
makes going into the duck pen....... fun but a bit hazardous to the duckie's toes
as they are UNDER me all the time now
nibbling my muck boots
or my crocks
they even try to stick their heads down INTO my muck boots and sit on my toes
and they LIKE it

they are a lot of fun now
it's a good distraction for me as the garden is now winding down
but that didn't stop a ner'do well bug from biting me on the eye
i am a mess
i am also on benedryl cause if i don't take it
i can't SEE out of my swollen eye
damn bug

it's getting colder out
we potted up a few pepper plants.....and an eggplant
i want to bring them up
meanwhile we also planted some garlic and onions
(that would be how i got bitten on the eye)
i have more to go
i am slowly giving the beans all to the duckies now
beans, stalks and leaves
i also gave them some of the pattypan squash
it makes it a bit easier to see the end of the garden

i sooooooooooo want a hoop house
and my sheep and goat home

i ordered more chicks
margeruite is staying ( she is going to lay again....she crouched for the 'rooster' today)
but i think regretfully that henrietta and dulcette's days are numbered
i need stewers
and eggs
they aren't laying

i think the duckies are going to start to lay shortly
i was hoping they wouldn't until spring but it looks like the sweetest one was looking......she sat in her mother's nest

wood is getting stacked.......slowly
i also hurt my finger......split my nail down from the tip
it's hurting bad
so i sort of stopped for a bit
i was also helping bernie do wood saturday
but i better think of starting up again shortly
tomorrow i need to can some celery/onions
and freeze broccoli
and some beef
i was so sick today
i didn't do anything but juice some crabapples i picked off a tree down town
jelly really quick tomorrow

i would really like to have part of my garden hooped
i could then extend the season at both ends maybe
i would also like a greenhouse
i could put these peppers and the eggplant in there
and the pattypan squash
or a zuke
and maybe a tomatoe

i am going to start lettuce and such in the house in window boxes in the windows......out in the 'cold' living room

it's too hot in here with the woodstove

my little duckies are endearing themselves to me
they are so cute
they greet me as if i am a duckie too
and they wag their tails

good thing we don't eat the girls huh?

til next time

Friday, October 03, 2008

what skills do you have to barter with?

Currently the web and the lists I am on are full of worry and fears over the financial market here and abroad.
The news daily has word of the bail out
People are either for or against it
Some people are worried that “The End Of The World As We Know It” (TEOTWAWKI) has arrived

I don’t think so
However, as part of Bernie (although reluctantly on his part) and my ongoing quest for more self sufficiency, I was thinking of what barter-able skills we both have.

Here is a partial list of mine
Cooking from scratch
Some animal husbandry and I can milk but it’s been ages
Butter churning
Sewing ( and pattern/clothes making)
I also tell a good story and am a born teacher
Dog training
Herbal medicines
Baking ( including bread)
Wood stacking
Keeping a woodstove going

What I would still like to learn
Shoe making!
Leather tanning
Bee keeping
Horse breaking
dry curing meat
brine curing meat
how to build an underground root cellar

and what other things would we have to barter with?

maple syrup from my sugar maples
eggs from the ducks..... and some duck meat (done for this year......)

i need to refresh my chicken layers so no chicken eggs right now....soon though

i do have two ewes ......tunis ewes
i would need a ram but each one of my ewes should twin........although i wouldn't count on that
and they can be kept on pasture, as they are thrifty

my wethers would have to go
and my goat......well......she's going to be three now....and not bred yet
so i imagine that she will be dinner unfortunately

what would i barter for?

a broke to pulling draft oxen or draft cow
and grazing land

fruit bushes and trees

and a non electric well pump

wood for the stove



it's interesting to think about this
what would you do?

i do NOT believe that the end of the world is coming.....nor total economic collapse
i do think some rough times are coming
if they aren't here already
and i also think that we collectively need to start paying more attention to the basics..... food shelter energy
but on a very personal and local scale
a return to victory gardens
putting by food during the growing season OURSELVES
being more responsible for our selves

so again i ask you

what would you do?
what skills do you have
what would you like to learn?

Thursday, October 02, 2008

duckie names..... weather change......

well it's that time........( haven't we had this conversation before?)

the duckies are to be named

i suppose that is the ritual of ownership or relationships or family ties even

naming............. giving a name,........... recognition

whether it's naming a child, pet or just labeling a person as 'my friend'
the saying of that seems to mark the occasion, and relationship as important,
setting it off in your mind as an individual worthy of thought and consideration.
making it real-er somehow

it would seen to be a primal urge
which links us back to our first ancestors that walked up right and gazed with wonder on the world around

we have whole ceremonies surrounding this
naming of ships with champagne
naming of buildings with ribbons
naming of children with religious ritual

now...... i come to the naming of the duckies
for us it signifies ......'you are staying here'
for we did not name the boys, nor the ones leaving

now it is clear they are staying.....the time for naming is here

now forgive me for being so philosophical today.....
i was up at 4:30 am reading a book a friend gave me
it's rattled my brain i finished it at 8am......
and it is still stuck in the corners of my mind

i found myself wondering ............. how many stories in life do not have happy endings.....where all the ends are woven in...... neatly trimmed up and presented

i know in my life....
some things just ...........ended
abruptly in some cases..... and i was very grateful for that
but still no lessons learned
no insights
no explanations
events strung out with no connections

then there are some things that are gloriously connected..... light blazing laser lights which are amazing to see

today i wonder how come i am not on my farm yet

i am not quite sure why no

i know the economy, and housing market etc....

but still i wonder why?

i feel in a holding pattern
at times

which has made me determined to NOT stop doing
even if it has to be here........

because i can't see putting my life on hold waiting for the farm
i do here
i plan on putting in fruit trees
because three years ago i wanted to
i held off because we 'were going to move'
we're still here
those trees would have been bearing now

if we move........ok i will replant
but i am determined now
not to wait....not to hold off
to take whatever i can with what i have here

to make as much as a farm here as i can
it may be the only farm i ever get
it may be the preliminary to the farm of my dreams.....
i don't know
i wish i did know
but i am determined............ the picture of the life in my head......

i want it
and it doesn't matter where i am

i am intending on living it

on that note
here is a list of some of the duckie names i am thinking of

aldora ( which is cool as it means 'winged gift')

til next time


Wednesday, October 01, 2008

ahhhhhhhhhhh October!!!!

welcome october
happy happy october 1st everyone

today it is raining
on and off

i found our woodpile uncovered and the wood was getting wet

to celebrate october though
i plan on roasting a fruit stuffed pork loin
i know i really should wait for the weekend and serve it with baked acorn squash
and scalloped yukon gold potatoes.......or should i roast them with garlic and parsley?
but i may just do it today anyway
happy october and happy hump day?

i got some dried peach slices.......and i think i will soak them in some cherry juice left from making danish cherries.....
then add THAT all to cornbread stuffing
and stuff the pork loin
how does that sound?

i wish it was a bit cooler in a way
i could start the woodstove
but it's not
which is good for the garden
as there are some plants i would like to lift
oh well

happy october everyone