today is the dentist for bernie

and in a nick of time as i am about to pound him with a frying pan
cause i can't sleep either with him up all night
(if this guy is any good-i'll be going to take care of my abscessed teeth as well)

now on to the good stuff
that le creuset i got a huge deal on (off ebay) came
it's got more then a 'minor' chip on the handle but considering i got something like 80% off
and it is brand new..... i'll use it and not worry too much
it's a soup pot, a 4.5 quart soup pot, and i don't think they make them anymore!!!
it's also red.
and is surprisingly lighter in weight then the no name stuff from china
i still want my staub cocotte (oval) actually i am thinking of a few staub rounds and ovals.
i want a matte black oval stab for no knead bread...

today i am having a rough time getting it all together and getting going
i have to move wood and i'm not getting to it
3 new cords are coming friday
with another 3 new cords coming in i think three weeks
that should hold us if the wood is good
i still need a tank of fuel oil as back up though-just in case

this morning thaddeaus puked up before breakfast, then i fed him
good thing he nailed a cardboard box, that will make clean up really easy
oye
CATS

i made a pork loin last night and rice, bernie couldn't eat.
he said he was hungry then started to eat and gets nausea so i hope that the dentist will have something for that
i am also hoping he feels well enough to take down the antique bed that we used to sleep on while my sister in law was here. it's now officially in my way. it's got one of those old iron springs (remember them things?) weighs a ton.
so maybe this i don't also have to do myself

last night as i was struggling to get into bed (it's WAY higher then my ass is)
bernie finally realized, and even commented 'you need a step up to get into bed'

ya think?

what finally made you realize? me flinging myself up on my belly like a whale beaching?
oye
i have to say i am getting so frustrated with almost everything in this house too heavy or too high up for me
i swear i know what a midget feels like in a giant world
(i thought i was over this crap when i grew up into an adult- kids deal with this a lot too)

i am also getting fed up (*like i haven't been for years) with the kitchen or lack of it
to the point where i am thinking.... can we move it out of the kitchen 'room' and put it in the studio...or even in an adjacent SHED......i'm getting to be a desperate woman now- i am going to start to take matters into my own hands..... bernie won't like the results i can guarantee you that. i am about to start ripping out shit in that kitchen and replacing it with just shelves of all kinds and half ass doors over them
with wood block counter or even plywood or anything

oye
i swear i am a desperate woman..........