bernie's foot

he went to work, and worked a full day
he's all swollen and in pain
(dumb ass man)

if upper management had realized they would have sent him home
(the upper management in this company is wonderful, they really are)

he's limping around and not elevating

i am going to appoligize to everyone for not really responding much to comments or even to emails

losing my two favorite girls and then bernie getting hurt knocked me for a loop
even lillianna decided to stop yelling at me and was sweet, coming up and asking for a neck rub

i miss cleo and marguerite so bad i can't believe it
i got so used to always checking where cleo was as she was the weakest of the ducklings.
and marguerite, i had a special treat for her all the time, she'd be waiting for me every morning at the end of her pen for a pet and wattle rub and her treat
i could kiss her little beak and pet her soft feathers
(duck feathers aren't soft at all but orpington chicken feathers are)

fawn has been sleeping on my head now and licking my arm most of the night
she knows something is up
even thaddeaus and calpurrnia are aware that something isn't right in our little family

meanwhile momma has been accepted into the little duck group
they do nip at her neck but i realized it's more like sibling rivelry then actual agression
she's coming around slowly
i don't know if i will ever get her to come and ask to be held like cleo and lilli do
(did?)
even phoebe sometimes asks to be held so maybe
i do know that momma doesn't really care for falstaff much so i won't be putting her in with him again unless i see her express an interest
she won't even go over to greet him when the girls do
poor falstaff
he's lonely again
i need to find him a few ducks that won't mind him

ok
back to the drawing board
i had to put aside the duck drawings for the moment
i can't bear to look at the pictures right now when little cleo was alive and well and running around