i hadda dream......

it was actually pretty interesting
it was about a man finding out that he had a son, who was 17 or 18...... and meeting the parents of his son, as well as his son....who looked exactly like him!
how the mother was so afraid that this man was going to try and take her son away, how the father was so protective and fearful and confused about his role in his son's life
and how the man who's biological son it was, just wanted to know the boy and do right by him
it was a dream about rights, who's rights, and what is right.
it was a dream about emotions, about time, and raised a lot of questions in every direction
and in the dream i got to see and feel each position from inside the person who was in the dream!
i dreamed of the mothers hopes and fears, the love and pride when she saw her son, the dedication she had to his well being
i dreamed of his father's pride, and patience, and love, even though the man knew that he hadn't fathered this boy. he HAD parented and raised him and in the end that is the part that matters, he IS the parent. how this man had sacrificed so many things that this boy would do well in the world.

then there was the biological father, who didn't know he had a child. who wanted to be part of this boy's life but didn't want to take anything away from the boy's parents. who was broken hearted but not angry that he hadn't known. and who took an almost childlike delight in finally realizing that this boy was a part of him, and looked just like him

interesting huh?
over all in this dream i was amazed at the levels of love for this child's well being that the adults felt
the fierce love and protectiveness they had. and the biological father was truly childlike in his wonder at this boy..... this finding suddenly that there was a person related to him that he knew nothing about-the sadness that he'd never had a part in this boy's life. the hope he had that the boy would have a better life then he did.
the mother's feeling that the biological father was not mature enough to ever go near her son

the complexity of emotions, and the clearity and honesty of emotions
it was like watching a very good movie.....and i could even SIT THROUGH IT~!!!
hahaha
i can't actually sit through movies much in real life
I LOVE dreams like this....love them these full story dreams

so many things where going on all at once, there was not any actual resolution to the delemia, but there was a sense of understanding for me to see how it all connected together overall.
that the fears were expressed in different ways and overall how much love for his one child tempered everything.

i loved how the biological father and the son stood right next to each other... looked almost identical, and took everyone by surprise. even their mannerisms were identical.
meanwhile the son had NO IDEA none........... typical of his biological father at the same age!
hahaha

gee really i am not this deep in real life.....i just dream deep

ok now today i am to go with jen somewhere, i don't know where.
i am still extremely sore from the fall (remember that fall?) actually my shoulder is getting worse. so are my knees
so after my sister in law comes i will be going to the doctor and then most likely into pt

now over the weekend, we got some stuff done. bernie repointed the stone on the house, he was in a good mood too as he did it and it wasn't hard. so he's feeling pretty good about himself.
he is going to help me do the trellis for the beans and cuc's in the garden too
i picked up some seeds in town and i am going to start some of the fall crops
and while i was having this incredible interesting dream i also dreamt a solution to my tomato planting delemia as well.....so i am going to be making a bamboo and plastic 'greenhouse' for them

we had burgers on the deck with my mom's potato salad, which this time we made with yukon golds, and it was a LOT better then the little reds in there....so from now on....yukons!!!
my beans are well sprouted out in the little bed. i am so happy to see them. i also saw one nasturium sprouted out there.. i got seeds for the climbing naturiums yesterday so they will climb the cucumber trellis with the cuc's, i think i will have two flowers for every 4 cuc's and then border the bed with marigolds and chives
we got some strawberries and a pound cake so tonight........strawberry shortcakes!!!
and we picked up wood for another 4X8 bed... this one will be made next week end..
the following weekend we will have to make the cold frame up.... i think we are also going to have to figure something out as we can't sink a bed 14'' under ground level for it
so insulation must be our friend...
ok off i go now
enjoy your day everyone

tell me what you think of my dream
now i just took a tylanol arteritis strength and two aspirins to get me through the day.