well i came down at 1:25am

i almost was doing ok, i got this cold so i was planning on going up early.
a friend of mine called
we've been friends.......almost 40 years
oh my.......i feel so very old saying that....well duh that's cause i AM old
someone we both knew died , and she wanted me to get in touch with someone who needed to know.....but no one has seen for 20 years
i did that because she asked me
BIG MISTAKE
this guy is a major alcoholic, and unlike a fine wine, hasn't improved with age
he won't help himself
and i got seriously upset so now i'm up
i also went through facebook and found the class of fairlawn high 19**
(don't ask....... seriously i am not ready to deal with being THIS OLD YET)
then i got not only upset but depressed and i swear my blood pressure has got to be a gibillon over a megamillion
is it time for me to move to florida yet? i really am that old.

when you are young, you almost make fun of the old people.........some you respect and listen to....others you shake your head and just move on
when you are old......
you sit there and wonder 'who the HELL are those people'?
i knew them?
shared laughs and dreams and hopes and intimate (for a kid) secrets with them
?
bernie and i went to highschool together, in fact i met him in froggy wilson's history class, (froggy wilson and jessie church taught my brother, sister AND me........20 and 16 years later respectively)
but we rarely talk about highschool.......
we talk about today and tomorrow, and sometimes yesterday but never highschool
we did a little tonight
anyway, there is no point at all in this post, i am just up, tired, and wondering what it is all about