i tend to have dreams
not in the martin luther king jr sense.....( although i do have those type as well but we are talking about sleeping dreams)
anyway, i tend to have dreams that either are real, happen or furnish me with some sort of information i need
this morning i was woken up three seperate times by dreams from a person i haven't heard from in 4 years
the last dream was disturbing, as it involved one of the kids
so i tried to call. the number has been changed
ok
i emailed
i am waiting to see if daemon mailer kicks it back
i wouldn't be surprised
this all leads me to thinking about just how interconnected and yet unaware we all really are
and about that old attribute called 'the sight'
yes i do have 'the sight' and i have always had it
although at times through my life it's been a bit ragged and perhaps needed glasses
i think everyone has it
cops use it daily
as do successful buisness people
and a million other living things
but now while i try and brush the aftermath of the last very disturbing dream from my mind, i can't help but wonder about this attribute
i can see the use, but also why can i not use it like the tool it is obviously ment to be
why do i not have more control over it
my sister in law thinks we aren't ment to have that sort of control over it
but i think we should
like any other tool no?
ok anyone else out there have the use of this attribute?
please by all means let me hear from you all
vi
Friday, April 25, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
the search for ancestors
Apparently every late winter to late spring I get the urge to find my past
Last year I found my paternal grandmother, her family, my paternal grandfather and part of his family and my dad’s siblings
I found a few of mom’s side
This year is apparently the year of the maternal grandfathers
I went looking for my mom’s mom, and her father…….. and I found HIM and HIS father
As well as a couple of his siblings
I don’t know my mother’s mom’s maiden name……BUT I have the information to get her death certificate as well as my mom’s birth certificate
I am still looking for her fathers mother……whom, apparently I am named after as was she…… but there is some confusion about HER mothers name….i could also be named after her but I am not sure
I keep talking to my ancestors while I do this
Asking them to cut me a break here………….. let me find SOMETHING of you all
I also ask them to send me 3 million dollars in a winning lotto ticket but that is besides the point…….
( well it IS the least they can all do no?)
meanwhile, I have cousins and such out there……..from both sides……
first cousins on my mom’s side
my cousin stevie romano and his sister anita romano…….. their other sister marie may still be alive as well….
I don’t know if my uncle jack had kids……. Or my uncle carlos but I think they both did……
They would be covino…. Carlos’ would be in California
Uncle jack’s would I imagine be in NY state
It’s sort of addicting
I almost have enough to start searching in italy if I wish to
But the garden is about to be opened for spring…….
Canning season started more or less….( ok so it never really ends does it…..canning season or gardening I mean)
I will be getting too busy to search through websites for ancestors…….
I am I realize one of the lucky ones……my people came through ellis island and rather recently at that…… I can find a lot of them
(except my mother’s paternal grandmother and my maternal grandmother….for some reason the gramma’s aren’t ready to be found yet)
anyway…… I am happy I am back on the net…… Bernie said a new computer is soooooooo in my future……. When I see it…..i will believe it
if I get a new one…….DSL is also in my future….
How about THAT?
Ok till next time
vi
Last year I found my paternal grandmother, her family, my paternal grandfather and part of his family and my dad’s siblings
I found a few of mom’s side
This year is apparently the year of the maternal grandfathers
I went looking for my mom’s mom, and her father…….. and I found HIM and HIS father
As well as a couple of his siblings
I don’t know my mother’s mom’s maiden name……BUT I have the information to get her death certificate as well as my mom’s birth certificate
I am still looking for her fathers mother……whom, apparently I am named after as was she…… but there is some confusion about HER mothers name….i could also be named after her but I am not sure
I keep talking to my ancestors while I do this
Asking them to cut me a break here………….. let me find SOMETHING of you all
I also ask them to send me 3 million dollars in a winning lotto ticket but that is besides the point…….
( well it IS the least they can all do no?)
meanwhile, I have cousins and such out there……..from both sides……
first cousins on my mom’s side
my cousin stevie romano and his sister anita romano…….. their other sister marie may still be alive as well….
I don’t know if my uncle jack had kids……. Or my uncle carlos but I think they both did……
They would be covino…. Carlos’ would be in California
Uncle jack’s would I imagine be in NY state
It’s sort of addicting
I almost have enough to start searching in italy if I wish to
But the garden is about to be opened for spring…….
Canning season started more or less….( ok so it never really ends does it…..canning season or gardening I mean)
I will be getting too busy to search through websites for ancestors…….
I am I realize one of the lucky ones……my people came through ellis island and rather recently at that…… I can find a lot of them
(except my mother’s paternal grandmother and my maternal grandmother….for some reason the gramma’s aren’t ready to be found yet)
anyway…… I am happy I am back on the net…… Bernie said a new computer is soooooooo in my future……. When I see it…..i will believe it
if I get a new one…….DSL is also in my future….
How about THAT?
Ok till next time
vi
What a nightmare
It all started a few months ago, my internet service provider overcharged me by a month and a half
Without thinking I paid it.
Then they told me……
‘you don’t have to pay us, we’re paid up’
ok
I didn’t pay them for the months of the overage
Then without warning they shut me off!
At the pole, not even at the office!
Huh?
Wait I paid you, I paid you too much……….
I went to a friend’s house got online, and paid them
Apparently I STILL paid them too much as now they owe me money!
I tried to call them, the customer service people I got on the phone were……to be polite, complete and total idiots
And didn’t CARE that I had over paid, that they had told me not to pay them
And my emails…….my accounts were all wiped out!
Without a word to me…no warning
She said to me ‘we called you’
I said…….i NEVER got a call
Well we called you
Ok……………………………………( you do NOT want to know what I was thinking at that point……let’s just say, it wasn’t anywhere near polite nor politically correct)
And since I pay my bills on line and you wiped out my account……how could I even try to see what was going on?
Now Bernie said to me…….just pay them or whatever and get the internet back……..
Ahhhhhhhhhh……………
No
I wouldn’t have minded the snaffoo if the customer service wasn’t so freeken flippant about it all
But I have had it with this isp
The email box has been messed up for two years now……it’s on their end……
Finally one tech said……’try changing your password, as it’s on our end’
Next began my adventures in outsourced customer service to foreign countries.
After speaking to goodness only knows how many Indian from India accented people……who did not apparently know how to deal with a computer with Win98SE, nor could they understand WALL phone filters,
NO NIC card…..i have firewire……
Rest assured they were mostly very polite
and tried really really HARD to give me 'american' names
the funniest one was 'ummmmmmUNDY'
i asked him to spell that...... ANDY
hahahahahaha
his accent was so damn thick i KNEW that if ANDY was his real name.....he was a total gonner
and btw, he didn't know what the hell he was talking about as i had been given a test access number/username and password to see if i could use thier system.... ( aol.... shame on aol)
and it didn't work.
UMUNDY told me that they didn't do that kind of thing.....
the guy right before him did
oye
Well except the sleezy from peoplepc, who kept telling me without the code he couldn’t give me the discount.
And kept having to ask his manager…….
I was put on hold for I swear three weeks……
Ok I found an American based company……local even
They aren’t as cheap as the foreign based companies
However, they spoke ENGLISH, and they HELPED ME
And we are now connected, even though it’s dial up….it’s faster dial up
They helped me over a glitch in my system too
Lovely woman that had me laughing, ( ok so I tried to give her a duckling too)
And in approximately 10 minutes, I had internet service….. with a SMILE and a person who actually understood English AND was helpful AND polite AND did what she said she was going to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What a concept
vi
we soooooooooo have to stop the foreign outsourcing
so i am paying a bit more for my internet......i think it's worth actually having service that i can understand and that is helpful
It all started a few months ago, my internet service provider overcharged me by a month and a half
Without thinking I paid it.
Then they told me……
‘you don’t have to pay us, we’re paid up’
ok
I didn’t pay them for the months of the overage
Then without warning they shut me off!
At the pole, not even at the office!
Huh?
Wait I paid you, I paid you too much……….
I went to a friend’s house got online, and paid them
Apparently I STILL paid them too much as now they owe me money!
I tried to call them, the customer service people I got on the phone were……to be polite, complete and total idiots
And didn’t CARE that I had over paid, that they had told me not to pay them
And my emails…….my accounts were all wiped out!
Without a word to me…no warning
She said to me ‘we called you’
I said…….i NEVER got a call
Well we called you
Ok……………………………………( you do NOT want to know what I was thinking at that point……let’s just say, it wasn’t anywhere near polite nor politically correct)
And since I pay my bills on line and you wiped out my account……how could I even try to see what was going on?
Now Bernie said to me…….just pay them or whatever and get the internet back……..
Ahhhhhhhhhh……………
No
I wouldn’t have minded the snaffoo if the customer service wasn’t so freeken flippant about it all
But I have had it with this isp
The email box has been messed up for two years now……it’s on their end……
Finally one tech said……’try changing your password, as it’s on our end’
Next began my adventures in outsourced customer service to foreign countries.
After speaking to goodness only knows how many Indian from India accented people……who did not apparently know how to deal with a computer with Win98SE, nor could they understand WALL phone filters,
NO NIC card…..i have firewire……
Rest assured they were mostly very polite
and tried really really HARD to give me 'american' names
the funniest one was 'ummmmmmUNDY'
i asked him to spell that...... ANDY
hahahahahaha
his accent was so damn thick i KNEW that if ANDY was his real name.....he was a total gonner
and btw, he didn't know what the hell he was talking about as i had been given a test access number/username and password to see if i could use thier system.... ( aol.... shame on aol)
and it didn't work.
UMUNDY told me that they didn't do that kind of thing.....
the guy right before him did
oye
Well except the sleezy from peoplepc, who kept telling me without the code he couldn’t give me the discount.
And kept having to ask his manager…….
I was put on hold for I swear three weeks……
Ok I found an American based company……local even
They aren’t as cheap as the foreign based companies
However, they spoke ENGLISH, and they HELPED ME
And we are now connected, even though it’s dial up….it’s faster dial up
They helped me over a glitch in my system too
Lovely woman that had me laughing, ( ok so I tried to give her a duckling too)
And in approximately 10 minutes, I had internet service….. with a SMILE and a person who actually understood English AND was helpful AND polite AND did what she said she was going to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What a concept
vi
we soooooooooo have to stop the foreign outsourcing
so i am paying a bit more for my internet......i think it's worth actually having service that i can understand and that is helpful
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
happy tax day
April 14, 2008
A few random thoughts
My lettuce is up…..i can’t wait for the first of our salads
( I think I posted how I make them prior to this)
I want to expand the garden which I have often spoke of on this blog
Over and over I think
I also want to move
So the sheepies and goatie can come home…….
Now I put in a bunch of different lettuces and other green salad type plants, I go out daily and speak to the seedlings in the buckets on the deck.
I remember my momma going in the yard in the spring and harvesting dandelion greens, and I am doing that too……but I am giving them to Serafina……after all she is expecting………sorta
Bernie is late tonight,
I am having a sort of menstrual period, not a totally normal one….but all the symptoms and none of the red blood
It confused the hell out of me for a while….. I was all weepy again…..which isn’t really like me, unless my heart is broken ( I still cry over trish, damn I miss her)
I am a bit depressed as well. It’s probably just a reaction to the past few months, and the loss of my friend.
And I am very very tired.
You would think that this would be covered in the owners manual….or at least in a service pack or something…..ANYTHING…. damn thing sneaks up on you and whomps you over the head like bricks
We paid our taxes today, all year I worry and sweat over paying them. For 2008 I will only have to worry about local…….not state and local anymore…..
That will help me a lot
I have to decide on firewood, I think we ended up using 5 cords give or take….
I suppose that is what I will replace.
I want my grain mill already…… oye
I got my wheat and barley and hopefully soon my oats. I got rice put in, ( I have to put the second sack in the freezer this week, then dry can it)
I am hoping for a goodly amount of meats to can soon, and I hope as always for an abundant harvest
Plus that hoop house to grow and harvest veggies through the winter…that will help me a LOT
With that and the root cellar, and the canning shelves….. not to mention the stuff I dry, we should be in good shape…..
YES I am thinking of NEXT winter already……
I also need to find the time to make soap in the next few weeks
Right now however, the garden has me totally absorbed. We put manure and compost on two beds, and covered one with tarps and one with black plastic.
I have 5 more beds to do like that yet…..
Possibly 6
I am going to put some mini hoops with clear plastic over some beds to get a bit of a jump on the tomatoes and peppers, as well as some pumpkins and zucchini I think…. I wonder if the eggplant would be happy like that early?
I can do that over a couple of beds actually…..not the beans and cucumbers……or the broccoli’s, cauliflowers or cabbages of course…..
Thankfully……. While surfing the net over the years……I downloaded a LOT of information to cd’s
I have been taking this no internet time to quietly go mad……. To spend my time going through all this information. There is a considerable amount
But I am enjoying it to a point….. I will be really happy when I have full time internet back however
Thaddeaus has gained back all the weight he lost while sick…… he is now again a solid hefty little boy. You can feel almost three vertebrae in his back, and he’s got a nice covering over his ribs
My boy is solid again AND still has fur! Thousands of curlies…….
What a good boy he’s been too, ok…….so he really hasn’t been a good boy…..i mean he is THADDEAUS PEABODY….. but he tries
Sorta………..
Occasionally……………..
When he’s hungry…………..
And I got fancy feast………
Oh ok so he’s really a bad boy…….but we love him
He’s happy tonight as I got the woodstove on again, it’s to go down past 30 overnight
Well that is the most of the news……
Til next time
vi
A few random thoughts
My lettuce is up…..i can’t wait for the first of our salads
( I think I posted how I make them prior to this)
I want to expand the garden which I have often spoke of on this blog
Over and over I think
I also want to move
So the sheepies and goatie can come home…….
Now I put in a bunch of different lettuces and other green salad type plants, I go out daily and speak to the seedlings in the buckets on the deck.
I remember my momma going in the yard in the spring and harvesting dandelion greens, and I am doing that too……but I am giving them to Serafina……after all she is expecting………sorta
Bernie is late tonight,
I am having a sort of menstrual period, not a totally normal one….but all the symptoms and none of the red blood
It confused the hell out of me for a while….. I was all weepy again…..which isn’t really like me, unless my heart is broken ( I still cry over trish, damn I miss her)
I am a bit depressed as well. It’s probably just a reaction to the past few months, and the loss of my friend.
And I am very very tired.
You would think that this would be covered in the owners manual….or at least in a service pack or something…..ANYTHING…. damn thing sneaks up on you and whomps you over the head like bricks
We paid our taxes today, all year I worry and sweat over paying them. For 2008 I will only have to worry about local…….not state and local anymore…..
That will help me a lot
I have to decide on firewood, I think we ended up using 5 cords give or take….
I suppose that is what I will replace.
I want my grain mill already…… oye
I got my wheat and barley and hopefully soon my oats. I got rice put in, ( I have to put the second sack in the freezer this week, then dry can it)
I am hoping for a goodly amount of meats to can soon, and I hope as always for an abundant harvest
Plus that hoop house to grow and harvest veggies through the winter…that will help me a LOT
With that and the root cellar, and the canning shelves….. not to mention the stuff I dry, we should be in good shape…..
YES I am thinking of NEXT winter already……
I also need to find the time to make soap in the next few weeks
Right now however, the garden has me totally absorbed. We put manure and compost on two beds, and covered one with tarps and one with black plastic.
I have 5 more beds to do like that yet…..
Possibly 6
I am going to put some mini hoops with clear plastic over some beds to get a bit of a jump on the tomatoes and peppers, as well as some pumpkins and zucchini I think…. I wonder if the eggplant would be happy like that early?
I can do that over a couple of beds actually…..not the beans and cucumbers……or the broccoli’s, cauliflowers or cabbages of course…..
Thankfully……. While surfing the net over the years……I downloaded a LOT of information to cd’s
I have been taking this no internet time to quietly go mad……. To spend my time going through all this information. There is a considerable amount
But I am enjoying it to a point….. I will be really happy when I have full time internet back however
Thaddeaus has gained back all the weight he lost while sick…… he is now again a solid hefty little boy. You can feel almost three vertebrae in his back, and he’s got a nice covering over his ribs
My boy is solid again AND still has fur! Thousands of curlies…….
What a good boy he’s been too, ok…….so he really hasn’t been a good boy…..i mean he is THADDEAUS PEABODY….. but he tries
Sorta………..
Occasionally……………..
When he’s hungry…………..
And I got fancy feast………
Oh ok so he’s really a bad boy…….but we love him
He’s happy tonight as I got the woodstove on again, it’s to go down past 30 overnight
Well that is the most of the news……
Til next time
vi
Sunday, April 13, 2008
some posts while i was gone
Blog post for april 5 08
I am,
Without internet
It is a long story, but hopefully in 5-10 days I will be again with internet
I will be on dsl.
So I am typing this in word……which keeps capitalizing things for me.
I just type and it inserts capitals!
Now while I am waiting for internet, I am planning on moving my seedlings on to larger quarters, hardening some off, adding more little starter pots ( mainly cottage garden flowers now)
As you all know if you saw my previous post with the pictures of the 3 week old seedlings, I have a green thumb.
And I got a bit heavy handed with the bachelor buttons, as well as the columbines, but hey, I CAN tuck a plant here and there if I need to……. After I plant the main cottage garden bed
Or I can nursery them over on the deck
OR I can even sell some if need be
I so wish for a greenhouse
And a cold frame hoop house
I discovered little finches eating my freshly sown lettuce and mache seeds…..one of the down sides of having bird feeders up and full of seed
Now back to the vegetable garden in the making,
As I repot the tomatoes into larger containers, I bury them deeper…..and put them into the windows.
There is no longer room under my lights I use to start the seeds and grow the seedlings with.
Very soon EVERY window will be crammed full of pots of tomatoes, cabbages, hollyhocks, marigolds, peppers and leeks………….
Very soon I will be rigging my sort of greenhouse/cold frame hardening off thing out on the deck
I use saw horses and narrow poles to drape plastic drop clothes on…..and nightly bring in the more tender plants
I had hoped for a hoop house and cold frame this spring so all the work and fuss of doing the sifting of the plants wouldn’t be happening but that is life
And I have finally come to a decision of what to plant on the fence that is a problem……..STINGING NETTLE….. an extremely useful plant
Although it is also an extremely defensive plant as well.
I could use the nettle, it’s excellent as a pot herb as well as a wash for hair and skin
It will make good fodder for the poultry well wilted.
And the attraction against the fence is that any one stupid enough to trespass where it grows will get stung and a nasty rash………no trespassing……no rash it is as simple as that, yet it is a very nutritious green….. so nettle it is
On to other news
Calpurrnia was sick again……. 24 hours of vomiting. I used that probotic paste last night on her that the vet gave us last time, and sure enough no vomiting over night….none so far today.
I made her ‘fancy feast’ soup. Which is exactly what it sounds like… a smallish quantity of fancy feast in a larger quantity of water, warm……….
It is good to keep them hydrated when they are like this.
The vet and I can not figure out what this is exactly but they seem to be susceptible to it when the seasons change.
Thaddeaus remains furred! We are so unused to seeing him with a full coat on…..he reminds me of those weird Victorian supernatural people that look all wooly like sheep…..
So far he is still relatively short haired, but it looks like it will grow in long, and it is very very CURLY fur…….
Ah…….. what a laperm should be…..
Now one last thing, today ( actually tonight at I think 11pm) is new moon….
And a good time to plant things that grow under the ground such as onions and potatoes, beets, turnips, parsnips, and carrots.
It’s been dampish and raining off and on…… very good for the peas I planted the other day, as well as any of the lettuce or other greens that the finches may have left to me
I still need to get the spinach in…the first sowing didn’t take for whatever the reason.
I think in two weeks I will be getting three more large barrels for the deck….. and get the small planters and such out of there, cleaned up and replanted with rosemary, lemon grass, vanilla grass, and maybe another patchouli, ( I miss my patchouli) I also have a packet of cat grass seeds so I will plant that.
The cat NIP bucket is alive….i checked the other day, the cat nip is coming up, and I need to remember to move it on and divide it, as this year is a year for drying herbs.
A LOT of herbs
I have four or five sages to set out, which I like to dry whole leaves from, and also make kitchen wreaths. ( Trish you really should have stayed with us longer….you would have loved some of this stuff I do)
Well that is more or less the state of my herb garden, my life, and my furry family at the moment. BTW, bernie’s birthday is Tuesday. I doubt I will be on the net by then but you never know.
I will tell you all, I miss the internet, I miss my friends, I miss the unlimited wealth of knowledge that is found there at the stroke of a key.
And while I am not too fond of modern life. The internet I have to say…..even with it’s faults, makes it all worthwhile
Til next time
vi
April 6, 2008
We have a little visitor………..
Life is such an amazing experience.
And it is brutal in it’s down from our point of view.
This morning, Bernie came down to find a tiny baby squirrel dead on the front lawn. From the looks of him, it looks like he fell out of the tree looking for his momma, as he is a bit too little to be out of the nest.
I went out to see if the little guy was indeed dead.
He was
I turned him over, to see if there were puncture wounds or something……. Nope
And he was stiff. ( and a boy too)
While I was out there I heard a racket up in the tree above….. in the squirrel nests that has been there as long as I think we’ve lived here.
An even tinier baby was trying to come down the tree.
I was a wreck watching this baby, sure at any moment he would slip and fall to his death as well…..
He came down the tree
He climbed back up part way.
It was a lot of effort for a little guy like him
He rested a while and started back down.
I called Bernie out
When the baby got to the bottom of the tree he went around to the back and sat there for a few moments.
I called him to come to me as I was so worried about him
No parents around
The baby started to wobble over to me
And climbed my pants leg
Looking for food
I sent Bernie for a towel and the baby gratefully burrowed into it
We fed him he was starving
We got to the pet store for milk replacer
We kept feeding him
We warmed him up
He is very thin but he is a fighter, he’s now out in his little birdcage with his warm towel to burrow in.
I go and feed him often
He likes the heavy cream much better then the milk replacer mix
( goats are like that too…..can’t say I blame them huh?)
I hope he makes it
I think he’s about 6 weeks….
Marilyn went on line for me, ( as we have no internet until the dsl thing comes)
And from what I told her………… we figured 6-8 weeks…. As his eyes are open and his tail isn’t a rat tail…it’s starting to bush out.
But he is definitely tiny and not eating on his own yet……
He maybe will think of a seed but believe me….he’s looking for a teat most of the time
Meanwhile, it is bernie’s birthday observed.
As Tuesday is his real birthday, we are observing it today sort of
The celebration food got side tracked while I was feeding the baby
And Bernie is such a guy that he ran up to the pet store and spent $20.00 that we could NOT afford for the replacer milk
I am still laughing about that baby coming right over to me and climbing my leg
If my folks could talk to you all right now…..they would say
“of COURSE the baby climbed HER leg…….every sick, homeless or hurt animal for 100 miles finds their way to her door….’
( mom said that about Bernie too when I was going out with him……’ the dogs are getting bigger….this one is over 6’ tall’)
but this little baby was determined…….. my leg was going to bring him to a place where he was warm, fed, and safe………and so it did huh?
Wish this little one luck please…… I hope he grows big and strong….and becomes a happy and WILD squirrel out back
Vi
Updated, we lost the little guy which broke my heart
April 13 2008
Ducks, ducks everywhere.
Serafina the sly little duck……….. has hidden her nest
I had been asking Bernie if he could see eggs in the duck house….
Nope
I sort of poked around….nope
Well the other day, I found the nest…….
A gagillion eggs in there too!
Damn duck
I went into the pen Friday morning, with food for the ducks, water and my egg gathering basket.
I went around the back of the duck house where I had found that nest full of eggs…….
Serafina peeked around the side of the duck house…..she looked up at me
She looked down at her nest
She looked back up at me
I went out with an empty basket
BUT
I told that duck……….
She can’t KEEP them after they hatch…… in a 9 X 19 pen…… two ducks are more then enough
Oh man
We are going to be over freeken run with ducks
She is a sly little duck
vi
I am,
Without internet
It is a long story, but hopefully in 5-10 days I will be again with internet
I will be on dsl.
So I am typing this in word……which keeps capitalizing things for me.
I just type and it inserts capitals!
Now while I am waiting for internet, I am planning on moving my seedlings on to larger quarters, hardening some off, adding more little starter pots ( mainly cottage garden flowers now)
As you all know if you saw my previous post with the pictures of the 3 week old seedlings, I have a green thumb.
And I got a bit heavy handed with the bachelor buttons, as well as the columbines, but hey, I CAN tuck a plant here and there if I need to……. After I plant the main cottage garden bed
Or I can nursery them over on the deck
OR I can even sell some if need be
I so wish for a greenhouse
And a cold frame hoop house
I discovered little finches eating my freshly sown lettuce and mache seeds…..one of the down sides of having bird feeders up and full of seed
Now back to the vegetable garden in the making,
As I repot the tomatoes into larger containers, I bury them deeper…..and put them into the windows.
There is no longer room under my lights I use to start the seeds and grow the seedlings with.
Very soon EVERY window will be crammed full of pots of tomatoes, cabbages, hollyhocks, marigolds, peppers and leeks………….
Very soon I will be rigging my sort of greenhouse/cold frame hardening off thing out on the deck
I use saw horses and narrow poles to drape plastic drop clothes on…..and nightly bring in the more tender plants
I had hoped for a hoop house and cold frame this spring so all the work and fuss of doing the sifting of the plants wouldn’t be happening but that is life
And I have finally come to a decision of what to plant on the fence that is a problem……..STINGING NETTLE….. an extremely useful plant
Although it is also an extremely defensive plant as well.
I could use the nettle, it’s excellent as a pot herb as well as a wash for hair and skin
It will make good fodder for the poultry well wilted.
And the attraction against the fence is that any one stupid enough to trespass where it grows will get stung and a nasty rash………no trespassing……no rash it is as simple as that, yet it is a very nutritious green….. so nettle it is
On to other news
Calpurrnia was sick again……. 24 hours of vomiting. I used that probotic paste last night on her that the vet gave us last time, and sure enough no vomiting over night….none so far today.
I made her ‘fancy feast’ soup. Which is exactly what it sounds like… a smallish quantity of fancy feast in a larger quantity of water, warm……….
It is good to keep them hydrated when they are like this.
The vet and I can not figure out what this is exactly but they seem to be susceptible to it when the seasons change.
Thaddeaus remains furred! We are so unused to seeing him with a full coat on…..he reminds me of those weird Victorian supernatural people that look all wooly like sheep…..
So far he is still relatively short haired, but it looks like it will grow in long, and it is very very CURLY fur…….
Ah…….. what a laperm should be…..
Now one last thing, today ( actually tonight at I think 11pm) is new moon….
And a good time to plant things that grow under the ground such as onions and potatoes, beets, turnips, parsnips, and carrots.
It’s been dampish and raining off and on…… very good for the peas I planted the other day, as well as any of the lettuce or other greens that the finches may have left to me
I still need to get the spinach in…the first sowing didn’t take for whatever the reason.
I think in two weeks I will be getting three more large barrels for the deck….. and get the small planters and such out of there, cleaned up and replanted with rosemary, lemon grass, vanilla grass, and maybe another patchouli, ( I miss my patchouli) I also have a packet of cat grass seeds so I will plant that.
The cat NIP bucket is alive….i checked the other day, the cat nip is coming up, and I need to remember to move it on and divide it, as this year is a year for drying herbs.
A LOT of herbs
I have four or five sages to set out, which I like to dry whole leaves from, and also make kitchen wreaths. ( Trish you really should have stayed with us longer….you would have loved some of this stuff I do)
Well that is more or less the state of my herb garden, my life, and my furry family at the moment. BTW, bernie’s birthday is Tuesday. I doubt I will be on the net by then but you never know.
I will tell you all, I miss the internet, I miss my friends, I miss the unlimited wealth of knowledge that is found there at the stroke of a key.
And while I am not too fond of modern life. The internet I have to say…..even with it’s faults, makes it all worthwhile
Til next time
vi
April 6, 2008
We have a little visitor………..
Life is such an amazing experience.
And it is brutal in it’s down from our point of view.
This morning, Bernie came down to find a tiny baby squirrel dead on the front lawn. From the looks of him, it looks like he fell out of the tree looking for his momma, as he is a bit too little to be out of the nest.
I went out to see if the little guy was indeed dead.
He was
I turned him over, to see if there were puncture wounds or something……. Nope
And he was stiff. ( and a boy too)
While I was out there I heard a racket up in the tree above….. in the squirrel nests that has been there as long as I think we’ve lived here.
An even tinier baby was trying to come down the tree.
I was a wreck watching this baby, sure at any moment he would slip and fall to his death as well…..
He came down the tree
He climbed back up part way.
It was a lot of effort for a little guy like him
He rested a while and started back down.
I called Bernie out
When the baby got to the bottom of the tree he went around to the back and sat there for a few moments.
I called him to come to me as I was so worried about him
No parents around
The baby started to wobble over to me
And climbed my pants leg
Looking for food
I sent Bernie for a towel and the baby gratefully burrowed into it
We fed him he was starving
We got to the pet store for milk replacer
We kept feeding him
We warmed him up
He is very thin but he is a fighter, he’s now out in his little birdcage with his warm towel to burrow in.
I go and feed him often
He likes the heavy cream much better then the milk replacer mix
( goats are like that too…..can’t say I blame them huh?)
I hope he makes it
I think he’s about 6 weeks….
Marilyn went on line for me, ( as we have no internet until the dsl thing comes)
And from what I told her………… we figured 6-8 weeks…. As his eyes are open and his tail isn’t a rat tail…it’s starting to bush out.
But he is definitely tiny and not eating on his own yet……
He maybe will think of a seed but believe me….he’s looking for a teat most of the time
Meanwhile, it is bernie’s birthday observed.
As Tuesday is his real birthday, we are observing it today sort of
The celebration food got side tracked while I was feeding the baby
And Bernie is such a guy that he ran up to the pet store and spent $20.00 that we could NOT afford for the replacer milk
I am still laughing about that baby coming right over to me and climbing my leg
If my folks could talk to you all right now…..they would say
“of COURSE the baby climbed HER leg…….every sick, homeless or hurt animal for 100 miles finds their way to her door….’
( mom said that about Bernie too when I was going out with him……’ the dogs are getting bigger….this one is over 6’ tall’)
but this little baby was determined…….. my leg was going to bring him to a place where he was warm, fed, and safe………and so it did huh?
Wish this little one luck please…… I hope he grows big and strong….and becomes a happy and WILD squirrel out back
Vi
Updated, we lost the little guy which broke my heart
April 13 2008
Ducks, ducks everywhere.
Serafina the sly little duck……….. has hidden her nest
I had been asking Bernie if he could see eggs in the duck house….
Nope
I sort of poked around….nope
Well the other day, I found the nest…….
A gagillion eggs in there too!
Damn duck
I went into the pen Friday morning, with food for the ducks, water and my egg gathering basket.
I went around the back of the duck house where I had found that nest full of eggs…….
Serafina peeked around the side of the duck house…..she looked up at me
She looked down at her nest
She looked back up at me
I went out with an empty basket
BUT
I told that duck……….
She can’t KEEP them after they hatch…… in a 9 X 19 pen…… two ducks are more then enough
Oh man
We are going to be over freeken run with ducks
She is a sly little duck
vi
Thursday, April 03, 2008
cream, white, pale peach and violets
i have spring fever
BAD
really BAD
i am about to go to town and get a gallon of cream paint, some white paint and a quart of pale peach and start painting anything dark in the house
such as the mahogany teir table, old frames
old wooden dressers
chairs
piecrust tables
bernie
my workbench in the studio.....
and then grab a brush and paint violets........... all over EVERYTHING
you can never have too many violets you know
( and violet china makes me weak in the knees.... royal albert, lefton, hammersly, oh my)
i want to replace my over sink light with something cream, and covered with violets as well.....
can you tell they are my favorite flower?
i don't know WHY people think roses are the epitomy of flowers....
it's really the violet....
so fleeting
so quaint
and so modern all at once
they are refreshing in a way roses can never be
but then
i am bias
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
i heard there were chickens that didn't lay eggs
i was down talking to my ladies today,
they are still on vacation from laying, as is serafina
at one point, i heard henrietta announcing...... that normally means there is an egg for me to get
i went down
all four chickens lined up and looked at me
i felt like i should hang numbers around each of their necks
they looked like dangerous and wanted chickens
all frozen in the line up.......
just looking at me
hello chickens, i said to them
.............
they beep beep beeped at me, then boop boop booped at me
and started to come see if i brought them any pumpkin or cat food
or something they could eat.....
i petted each one of them
including surprisingly SHARON
who is very standoffish
their combs and wattles are nicely red....
they crouch like they are supposed to
but still no eggs
i think they may be on strike
next we will be known as
the home of the striking chicken
wonderful
just what we all needed
vi
postscript:
i was sort of futzing around in the living room today......
and i found a birthday card from last year.... from our trish
i didn't expect that and it caught at my heart
i am still reaching for the phone to call her
and today would be 4 weeks
i still can't quite get my mind around this
but as you all can see
i am getting on with it
they are still on vacation from laying, as is serafina
at one point, i heard henrietta announcing...... that normally means there is an egg for me to get
i went down
all four chickens lined up and looked at me
i felt like i should hang numbers around each of their necks
they looked like dangerous and wanted chickens
all frozen in the line up.......
just looking at me
hello chickens, i said to them
.............
they beep beep beeped at me, then boop boop booped at me
and started to come see if i brought them any pumpkin or cat food
or something they could eat.....
i petted each one of them
including surprisingly SHARON
who is very standoffish
their combs and wattles are nicely red....
they crouch like they are supposed to
but still no eggs
i think they may be on strike
next we will be known as
the home of the striking chicken
wonderful
just what we all needed
vi
postscript:
i was sort of futzing around in the living room today......
and i found a birthday card from last year.... from our trish
i didn't expect that and it caught at my heart
i am still reaching for the phone to call her
and today would be 4 weeks
i still can't quite get my mind around this
but as you all can see
i am getting on with it
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
planting snow peas
and mixed greens, along with a few lettuces.....
it's warm out, and raining
on and off.
i had to replant the greens and spinaches as the last planting got frozen on me
so today i went out and did snow peas and the mixed greens
i still need to plant the spinaches
in the house i continued to plant seeds, these are for a cottage garden
hollyhocks in shades of apricot, peach, pale rose, pale gold, and creams
foxglove in apricots
bachelor buttons,
dianthus-cottage pinks
columbine mixed shades
some of my seeds were old but had been kept in the fridge so we'll see
i am about to start transplanting to larger pots for the veggies
and to start to move the little guys outside for a while each day to harden off
i wish i had a greenhouse and a cold frame so bad
i am also thinking of putting in a climbing rose on an arbor that will frame the front windows
as well as espaliered fruit trees against the stone walls of the house
now is the time i really could use help, someone to help me move the seedlings out and in
someone to help put an arbor together, someone to help me dig the holes
but it's just me, and occationally bernie
the fruit trees i am thinking of to espalier are as follows:
peaches and apricots against the south side of the house
cherries on the north side of the house
i am considering a hedge of blueberries as well possibly.....
and cranberries for ground cover
i have a feeling that even though we are wanting to move, with the market such as it is
it will be a while...
may as well do what i have to do just in case we do have to stay here longer then i would like
also, i figure the person that would buy this little cottage in the woods, probably thinks similar to me......
and would WANT the cottage garden as well........
so cottage garden it is
now i want to point out an anomoly......
see that picture of my birthday card from bernie?
see the purple line in it?
i took the picture of my sheep card, and then that one.....that one was RIGHT NEXT to my sheep card, then i went on to take pictures of the little plants i am growing for the garden
in NO other picture is there a purple line...........
and when i checked the picture later under photoshop......i saw a LOT of 'noise' on both edges....
i have no explaination.....
so i will leave you all with that little mystery
and i will keep my opinions on it to myself.....
however
you all feel free to comment if you would.....on what YOU think that is
til next time
vi
ps: not a bad birthday either btw, no presents but that's ok i got the cats gifts, and it was a nice day
Sunday, March 30, 2008
waking up doesn't get better then this
i was woken up very quietly and very gently with a tiny little reddish nose on my nose
and sunlight filtering in the window on my face
and the tiniest of purrs
it was fawn
she was so happy to see me this morning, and i was so happy to open my eyes to her beautiful green eyes....
then she laid down on my pillow with her face in my face
next thaddeaus came up and laid down in my arms
purring into my face, tapping gently every once in a while on my shoulder
morning mommy......
calpurrnia laid beside me purring as loudly as her little body would let her
bernie was holding me, and reached over to pet everyone good morning
i came down to these two cards...... ohhhhhhhhhhh sheepies and violets....some of my very favorite things
he's outside right now restacking one of our wood piles that fell down with the blasting up the ridge for the last couple weeks
i am writing this blog right now but in a bit i am going to go out to my ducks and see them and the chickens
we are to have a roast turkey today, as turkey or chinese food are my favorites
I LOVE TURKEY, too bad i can't raise them.....but then i would probably make pets of them.....and we would have giant birds running around all over the place huh?
here are a few pictures of my future veggie garden....
they are the seedlings i started back the beginning of march....
and when they first sprouted
vi
and sunlight filtering in the window on my face
and the tiniest of purrs
it was fawn
she was so happy to see me this morning, and i was so happy to open my eyes to her beautiful green eyes....
then she laid down on my pillow with her face in my face
next thaddeaus came up and laid down in my arms
purring into my face, tapping gently every once in a while on my shoulder
morning mommy......
calpurrnia laid beside me purring as loudly as her little body would let her
bernie was holding me, and reached over to pet everyone good morning
i came down to these two cards...... ohhhhhhhhhhh sheepies and violets....some of my very favorite things
he's outside right now restacking one of our wood piles that fell down with the blasting up the ridge for the last couple weeks
i am writing this blog right now but in a bit i am going to go out to my ducks and see them and the chickens
we are to have a roast turkey today, as turkey or chinese food are my favorites
I LOVE TURKEY, too bad i can't raise them.....but then i would probably make pets of them.....and we would have giant birds running around all over the place huh?
here are a few pictures of my future veggie garden....
they are the seedlings i started back the beginning of march....
and when they first sprouted
vi
Saturday, March 29, 2008
friends are different when you are older
i found that friendships as you age are different from when you were a kid
in some ways it takes longer to make a close friend when you are older, as you don't have as many shared experiences
but at the same time, when you DO connect with someone it seems to me that you connect incredibly deeply
when you are a kid.... or teenager, sometimes while your friends do CARE, they do get distracted.
but again...... friends you make when you are much older...( 51 tomorrow) they seem to just KNOW.....if you know what i mean
there is a timelessness to them
i have one friend left alive from when i was a kid..... we talk occasionally..... it's like no time ever has gone past..... we discuss her kids...... our lives...... it's so odd occasionally for us, and we laugh.....
because we remember when it was 'so whatcha doing friday night, and can i borrow them overalls of yours'
we remember us as kids..... before responsibilities and cares, and worries...... and all the deaths that took the rest of us away......
i am deeply grateful for my friends now..... the women of a certain age that can knowingly smile when i say something about my husband......or about my aching back......
the laughter from them is deep and from the heart
they have cried with me over our losing Trish
i have made new friends as well..... time will tell how and how much that deepens
i realized that i am not a kid anymore..... and my viewpoint somehow, has shifted
maybe it IS because i have lost so many people, maybe i have had no choice but to grow up.
to grow into some wisdom
to see patterns in the lives around me
to realize that sometimes....no matter what you see..... or try to say....
you just have to sit back and watch the train wrecks and just hope you can help pull out any survivors.
that last one is tough, but so is life sometimes.
life also on the surface, doesn't seem fair......
why would trish be taken from us......and jackass lives on to embezzle another day
from a soul's point of view.......
trish was done with her lessons in this life time with these people. she gets to graduate, diploma, cap and gown...........she won.......she caught the brass ring ( soul's point of view is NOT ours here on earth remember that)
jackass....he gets thrown back to see if maybe......JUST FREEKEN maybe he will learn something before his sorry hide gets scraped off the pavement
could have a LOT to do with which side of the proverbial veil you are on ......what exactly is your view point.
but sometimes......it doesn't make it any easier
vi
in some ways it takes longer to make a close friend when you are older, as you don't have as many shared experiences
but at the same time, when you DO connect with someone it seems to me that you connect incredibly deeply
when you are a kid.... or teenager, sometimes while your friends do CARE, they do get distracted.
but again...... friends you make when you are much older...( 51 tomorrow) they seem to just KNOW.....if you know what i mean
there is a timelessness to them
i have one friend left alive from when i was a kid..... we talk occasionally..... it's like no time ever has gone past..... we discuss her kids...... our lives...... it's so odd occasionally for us, and we laugh.....
because we remember when it was 'so whatcha doing friday night, and can i borrow them overalls of yours'
we remember us as kids..... before responsibilities and cares, and worries...... and all the deaths that took the rest of us away......
i am deeply grateful for my friends now..... the women of a certain age that can knowingly smile when i say something about my husband......or about my aching back......
the laughter from them is deep and from the heart
they have cried with me over our losing Trish
i have made new friends as well..... time will tell how and how much that deepens
i realized that i am not a kid anymore..... and my viewpoint somehow, has shifted
maybe it IS because i have lost so many people, maybe i have had no choice but to grow up.
to grow into some wisdom
to see patterns in the lives around me
to realize that sometimes....no matter what you see..... or try to say....
you just have to sit back and watch the train wrecks and just hope you can help pull out any survivors.
that last one is tough, but so is life sometimes.
life also on the surface, doesn't seem fair......
why would trish be taken from us......and jackass lives on to embezzle another day
from a soul's point of view.......
trish was done with her lessons in this life time with these people. she gets to graduate, diploma, cap and gown...........she won.......she caught the brass ring ( soul's point of view is NOT ours here on earth remember that)
jackass....he gets thrown back to see if maybe......JUST FREEKEN maybe he will learn something before his sorry hide gets scraped off the pavement
could have a LOT to do with which side of the proverbial veil you are on ......what exactly is your view point.
but sometimes......it doesn't make it any easier
vi
Friday, March 28, 2008
rain and wheat and garden chores
it's raining today
i am also to pick up 100 pounds ( i think......it may be 90 pounds) of wheat today as well.
a bucket of soft wheat for pancakes and pastries, ( that's what is ground into all purpose flour if you would like to know)
and a bucket of hard white wheat for bread
i hope i remembered to order the hulled barley as i would like to malt that if i can for bread
as well as using it ground and also whole cooked
barley is VERY good for you
especially if you are IR (insulin resistant) like me
i looked over my garden yesterday while talking to my ducks.
i have been a very bad gardener, and after i planted the garlic in october, and settled the ducks. i neglected to finish the fall clean up, although i did get the tomato vines out.....but left a lot of the other stuff........oh and the pepper plants......ditched them in the compost too
it's a mess out there
my cutworm collars are all over
my plastic mulch is all over
as is my 'last minute plastic sorta hooped shelter for the peppers house'
but it is raining today...... and i have to pick up that wheat today
next week however...... or possibly even sunday....i will be out there
now if it is really hard bad rain......no
if it's a light drizzle....hell yeah
i got stuff that's got to go into the garden shortly
and
i got rabbit problems
jackass' wife turned her rabbits out again
a white one and a black one
two years ago we lost three planting to the rabbits they turned out ( until the hawk got one and a neighbor rescued the other, and we realized it WAS not deer but their rabbits.....as their un-neutered male cats not only sprayed all over my door and woodpile etc.....but got all the wild rabbits, chipmunks, moles, voles, shrews etc)
i knew that something was in the garden as the carrots were dug up
( wintered over ones........ without interference they would have been safe to now and one to go to seed)
so now i need a live trap for not only their cats.....but their rabbits
i need two traps huh?
i so have to move
we got the news from the township we live in....... all of a sudden it's SUBURBAN!
it's got suburban laws now
huh?
when did town move out here?
and how far out CAN we go so we don't have town moving in?
meanwhile also this weekend....i need to rig my yearly 'greenhouse/coldframe' on the deck with two sawhorses and a big sheet of plastic.....
only THIS year i have a RIGID former glass/plastic table top to use for the front
so i am thinking that will do me well, and i can just drape the sides with plastic like a table cloth.....and put my seedlings in trays to be slid in and out and around....no?
from the looks of the tomatoes....... they will be in 7 gallon buckets by the time they are ready to set out in the garden
( i apparently have an extremely green thumb.......too bad it isn't a 'win the big lotto' green thumb)
seedling requests are dribbling in..... people ask me to grow seedlings for them every year now
i grow heirlooms and there isn't any comparison with the taste
plus they know that my plants are healthy and not stressed....
one person from last year got a couple tomatoes, a pepper and a zucchini......THIS year she called with a longer list.....
it includes herbs and flowers too
so sometime in april i will start her seeds which she'll pick up in may
now on my canning list....... someone mentioned egyptian walking onions..... soooooooo now i have to investigate them...i was aware of them but i didn't think they were edible.......just ornamental.....but i have been assured you can eat them..
new this year to my garden is a wonderberry.....and a cape gooseberry....
there are a few more but i can't remember what they are called!
i hope for sorgum and amarath as well...... i want the grains for us and the chickens
i am thinking i need to grow some grains for the poultry for the winter.......
well i better get going, it's getting late and i have to get a lot done before i leave to get the wheat
til next time
vi
i am also to pick up 100 pounds ( i think......it may be 90 pounds) of wheat today as well.
a bucket of soft wheat for pancakes and pastries, ( that's what is ground into all purpose flour if you would like to know)
and a bucket of hard white wheat for bread
i hope i remembered to order the hulled barley as i would like to malt that if i can for bread
as well as using it ground and also whole cooked
barley is VERY good for you
especially if you are IR (insulin resistant) like me
i looked over my garden yesterday while talking to my ducks.
i have been a very bad gardener, and after i planted the garlic in october, and settled the ducks. i neglected to finish the fall clean up, although i did get the tomato vines out.....but left a lot of the other stuff........oh and the pepper plants......ditched them in the compost too
it's a mess out there
my cutworm collars are all over
my plastic mulch is all over
as is my 'last minute plastic sorta hooped shelter for the peppers house'
but it is raining today...... and i have to pick up that wheat today
next week however...... or possibly even sunday....i will be out there
now if it is really hard bad rain......no
if it's a light drizzle....hell yeah
i got stuff that's got to go into the garden shortly
and
i got rabbit problems
jackass' wife turned her rabbits out again
a white one and a black one
two years ago we lost three planting to the rabbits they turned out ( until the hawk got one and a neighbor rescued the other, and we realized it WAS not deer but their rabbits.....as their un-neutered male cats not only sprayed all over my door and woodpile etc.....but got all the wild rabbits, chipmunks, moles, voles, shrews etc)
i knew that something was in the garden as the carrots were dug up
( wintered over ones........ without interference they would have been safe to now and one to go to seed)
so now i need a live trap for not only their cats.....but their rabbits
i need two traps huh?
i so have to move
we got the news from the township we live in....... all of a sudden it's SUBURBAN!
it's got suburban laws now
huh?
when did town move out here?
and how far out CAN we go so we don't have town moving in?
meanwhile also this weekend....i need to rig my yearly 'greenhouse/coldframe' on the deck with two sawhorses and a big sheet of plastic.....
only THIS year i have a RIGID former glass/plastic table top to use for the front
so i am thinking that will do me well, and i can just drape the sides with plastic like a table cloth.....and put my seedlings in trays to be slid in and out and around....no?
from the looks of the tomatoes....... they will be in 7 gallon buckets by the time they are ready to set out in the garden
( i apparently have an extremely green thumb.......too bad it isn't a 'win the big lotto' green thumb)
seedling requests are dribbling in..... people ask me to grow seedlings for them every year now
i grow heirlooms and there isn't any comparison with the taste
plus they know that my plants are healthy and not stressed....
one person from last year got a couple tomatoes, a pepper and a zucchini......THIS year she called with a longer list.....
it includes herbs and flowers too
so sometime in april i will start her seeds which she'll pick up in may
now on my canning list....... someone mentioned egyptian walking onions..... soooooooo now i have to investigate them...i was aware of them but i didn't think they were edible.......just ornamental.....but i have been assured you can eat them..
new this year to my garden is a wonderberry.....and a cape gooseberry....
there are a few more but i can't remember what they are called!
i hope for sorgum and amarath as well...... i want the grains for us and the chickens
i am thinking i need to grow some grains for the poultry for the winter.......
well i better get going, it's getting late and i have to get a lot done before i leave to get the wheat
til next time
vi
Thursday, March 27, 2008
the ducks and other matters
my ducks will be with us almost a year .....( april 21 will be a year if i recall)
they have started to meet me at their pen gate when i go out to feed and water them
or even just to visit them
they wag their tails at me
and bob their heads and raise their crests
even little serafina....
although falstaff is the first one out
i will admit
i bribe them
i grub in the dirt and come up with fresh wild greens for them
today it was dandelions
yesterday it was violet leaves and chickweed and witch grass
they love it
so when i went to town today, my fingers were all dirt stained, but it was so worth it to see falstaff actually allow serafina first crack at the greens
and here i was thinking of having him with a nice orange sauce.....
ok the other matters
i am still having trouble knitting
i have few things waiting for me to cast on.....or to get back to
but right now......
well ok here is the run down
wip:
fichu from victorian lace today. Trish and i were discussing that and i was doing a test knit, she planned on following with her own
autumn leaf scarf: trish gifted me with the pattern for that wonderful silk laceweight i got at spirit trail last october at rhineback.
waiting to cast on:
magic carpet and moroccan days: trish and i were going to knit the magic carpet together
she was the first person i sent an invite to when i started the kal group at ravelry ( sorry susan, but i put her name first)
see where this is going?
i keep trying to find a place in my daily routine that didn't have trish in it....
but without realizing it my friend crept into a lot of aspects of my daily life
KR seems so empty without her as does ravelry
so does my inbox
and my voice mail
i am trying though
seriously i am
i am also trying not to be a nut about 'what would trish think about this'
but i think it often
i have lost so many close close friends over the years
and i can tell you all....it does NOT get easier
and if you would all follow me around, you would often see and hear me talking to the 'air'
it is not actually air....
i am talking to either thea, or evelyn, or my folks, or gramma rad, or......now trish
i know they hear me
i know that they are saying i talk too much
duh
well if they wouldn't have LEFT ME SO EARLY.....i would NOT be forced to scream at heaven
duh
i will tell you all, i still feel so lost at times
i am doing stuff and keeping busy and doing the seasonal thing
i don't cry every day
i do however make sure i call bob and leave a message daily..... so he has a light blinking on the answering machine AND so i hear trish's voice.....
cause i can't remember my mom's voice at all
so it is nice to still hear trish's
thank you so much bob for keeping her on the answering machine
now thea died in 96, and evelyn in 02
my mom was 85, dad was 98
gram in 03 right after my beloved merry and kisses
i still talk to them all daily....
and talk about them ALOT
so i suppose i hang on to folks....living and dead.....
i don't know if that is a good thing or not
i also know.....when i go
i don't really expect anyone to be sad at all
i don't expect any one to be anything other then ok in their daily life
i imagine that these special to me people would feel the same.....
they don't want me so sad.....or missing them so much
but the fact is right now i do
and it makes me feel very tiny in the big universe
so i grow plants and bake bread
and can food
and feed ducks
and pray daily that i figure a way for us to move to the farm
which seems so very insurmountable right now
however, in the immortal words of a fictional charactor
tomorrow IS another day
they have started to meet me at their pen gate when i go out to feed and water them
or even just to visit them
they wag their tails at me
and bob their heads and raise their crests
even little serafina....
although falstaff is the first one out
i will admit
i bribe them
i grub in the dirt and come up with fresh wild greens for them
today it was dandelions
yesterday it was violet leaves and chickweed and witch grass
they love it
so when i went to town today, my fingers were all dirt stained, but it was so worth it to see falstaff actually allow serafina first crack at the greens
and here i was thinking of having him with a nice orange sauce.....
ok the other matters
i am still having trouble knitting
i have few things waiting for me to cast on.....or to get back to
but right now......
well ok here is the run down
wip:
fichu from victorian lace today. Trish and i were discussing that and i was doing a test knit, she planned on following with her own
autumn leaf scarf: trish gifted me with the pattern for that wonderful silk laceweight i got at spirit trail last october at rhineback.
waiting to cast on:
magic carpet and moroccan days: trish and i were going to knit the magic carpet together
she was the first person i sent an invite to when i started the kal group at ravelry ( sorry susan, but i put her name first)
see where this is going?
i keep trying to find a place in my daily routine that didn't have trish in it....
but without realizing it my friend crept into a lot of aspects of my daily life
KR seems so empty without her as does ravelry
so does my inbox
and my voice mail
i am trying though
seriously i am
i am also trying not to be a nut about 'what would trish think about this'
but i think it often
i have lost so many close close friends over the years
and i can tell you all....it does NOT get easier
and if you would all follow me around, you would often see and hear me talking to the 'air'
it is not actually air....
i am talking to either thea, or evelyn, or my folks, or gramma rad, or......now trish
i know they hear me
i know that they are saying i talk too much
duh
well if they wouldn't have LEFT ME SO EARLY.....i would NOT be forced to scream at heaven
duh
i will tell you all, i still feel so lost at times
i am doing stuff and keeping busy and doing the seasonal thing
i don't cry every day
i do however make sure i call bob and leave a message daily..... so he has a light blinking on the answering machine AND so i hear trish's voice.....
cause i can't remember my mom's voice at all
so it is nice to still hear trish's
thank you so much bob for keeping her on the answering machine
now thea died in 96, and evelyn in 02
my mom was 85, dad was 98
gram in 03 right after my beloved merry and kisses
i still talk to them all daily....
and talk about them ALOT
so i suppose i hang on to folks....living and dead.....
i don't know if that is a good thing or not
i also know.....when i go
i don't really expect anyone to be sad at all
i don't expect any one to be anything other then ok in their daily life
i imagine that these special to me people would feel the same.....
they don't want me so sad.....or missing them so much
but the fact is right now i do
and it makes me feel very tiny in the big universe
so i grow plants and bake bread
and can food
and feed ducks
and pray daily that i figure a way for us to move to the farm
which seems so very insurmountable right now
however, in the immortal words of a fictional charactor
tomorrow IS another day
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
signs of spring?
a gold finch at the feeder, more yellow then olive
the drake and duck 'making ducklings'
the cardinals singing from the tops of the trees
tiny violet leaves hiding
the dirt is black and soft
sunlight in my eyes in the morning
a fly in the house
bernie home before dark
too warm to draft the woodstove
71 in the studio without the woodstove on
i crave salad
my seedlings are robust
tiny green leaves and red buds on the trees
could it possible be?
could the promise of rebirth and reawakening be happening right now?
the drake and duck 'making ducklings'
the cardinals singing from the tops of the trees
tiny violet leaves hiding
the dirt is black and soft
sunlight in my eyes in the morning
a fly in the house
bernie home before dark
too warm to draft the woodstove
71 in the studio without the woodstove on
i crave salad
my seedlings are robust
tiny green leaves and red buds on the trees
could it possible be?
could the promise of rebirth and reawakening be happening right now?
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
working my way though
i still miss my friend very badly, at least a dozen times a day i almost pick up the phone
i am trying to stay busy
today's busy was baking pie pumpkins and packaging the pulp for the freezer,
watering seedlings
starting to transplant some of the tomatoes
i need to get back to the paperwork project as well
but not only have i been sort of lost
but i have been sort of sick
the food posioning the other week seems to have set off a gallbladder thing
or maybe it was the stress?
so i am sort of out of things either way
but i know.....from past experience that i will get used to this new facet of my life
i may not like it however
i am still hoping to move soon to a farm
or at least a bigger property that i can have my farm ANIMALS on and an orchard, larger garden, and even if i am really lucky.....a managed wood lot
i am trying to get some whole grains in bulk as well now....i plan on grinding our own flour
fresh ground flour to make our bread
as well as other grains such as barley, amaranth, spelt and maybe a few more
i have hopes of moving us out of the commerical food system as much as i can
i just don't trust big agriculture anymore
too too many recalls and outbreaks of toxic diseased foods
and if you are what you eat.......
well you see where this is going
i also think folks need to go back a bit....take a bit more responsiblity for themselves
for feeding and clothing themselves
i used to hear stories of nona's chickens..... she lived in brooklyn!
why aren't people still having a couple chickens and a small garden in the city?
there are rooftops and vacant lots
can the cities not be made to bloom?
there is no excuse for the suburbs
every single house should have a garden and some small livestock, a few chickens, or ducks...maybe meat rabbits
larger properties need small goats and sheep....
just think of the savings on mower and trimming costs
i know folks may not all agree with me....but i am thinking times do come around
and this may be the time to go back a bit
revisit the past....... take some of what was good and can still be useful and practical today
or
maybe i'm nuts
vi
PS: this is where trish would say i'm nuts, and laugh at me
but she would also agree with me
gees i miss her
i am trying to stay busy
today's busy was baking pie pumpkins and packaging the pulp for the freezer,
watering seedlings
starting to transplant some of the tomatoes
i need to get back to the paperwork project as well
but not only have i been sort of lost
but i have been sort of sick
the food posioning the other week seems to have set off a gallbladder thing
or maybe it was the stress?
so i am sort of out of things either way
but i know.....from past experience that i will get used to this new facet of my life
i may not like it however
i am still hoping to move soon to a farm
or at least a bigger property that i can have my farm ANIMALS on and an orchard, larger garden, and even if i am really lucky.....a managed wood lot
i am trying to get some whole grains in bulk as well now....i plan on grinding our own flour
fresh ground flour to make our bread
as well as other grains such as barley, amaranth, spelt and maybe a few more
i have hopes of moving us out of the commerical food system as much as i can
i just don't trust big agriculture anymore
too too many recalls and outbreaks of toxic diseased foods
and if you are what you eat.......
well you see where this is going
i also think folks need to go back a bit....take a bit more responsiblity for themselves
for feeding and clothing themselves
i used to hear stories of nona's chickens..... she lived in brooklyn!
why aren't people still having a couple chickens and a small garden in the city?
there are rooftops and vacant lots
can the cities not be made to bloom?
there is no excuse for the suburbs
every single house should have a garden and some small livestock, a few chickens, or ducks...maybe meat rabbits
larger properties need small goats and sheep....
just think of the savings on mower and trimming costs
i know folks may not all agree with me....but i am thinking times do come around
and this may be the time to go back a bit
revisit the past....... take some of what was good and can still be useful and practical today
or
maybe i'm nuts
vi
PS: this is where trish would say i'm nuts, and laugh at me
but she would also agree with me
gees i miss her
Monday, March 24, 2008
gmail is out
i get a 502 error, which is 'temporary'
for the past two hours
however some folks with gmail have been out over 12 hours now
as that is now my primary email......i am in serious withdrawl
now in daily news, it's cold out
really cold actually.....about 22 degrees
the heat came on!
i was lazy today and slept in until 9am..... ( which a week or so ago would have only be 8am)
so the woodstove went totally (just a few live coals) out
bernie stoked it last night, i went up to bed a bit early.
i don't know why but i am tired lately
anyhow when bernie stokes the stoke, it goes out too early
i can keep it hot for at least 10 hours but somehow bernie can't seem to
i have to get back to my paper work decluttering today and also transplant seedlings
i just planted a couple more leeks and some more greens even if i have to keep the greens in flower pots on the living room windows....it's time now
i am growing a few new things this year
i am growing a salad green that also produces a sweet red berry fruit
i am growing a cape gooseberry
there are two berries from the huckleberry family, one by luther burbank.
if the seeds outside germinate, i am also growing about 10 different spinaches
and about 12 different assorted salad greens, including a few lettuces
i got a bit heavy handed with the cabbages this year.....
there must be 80 of them
so we are going to have cabbages all over the freeken place
the only pumpkin i am going to grow this year is the heirloom and extremely rare long neck pumpkin
this pumpkin looks ( when ripe) like a very overgrown zucchinni....it's dark green, except for one tiny spot where it rests on the ground....that should be orange...
if so it's ripe...cut it and cure it
and put it in storage.....over the winter it will turn orange
how cool is THAT
?
i went nuts trying to get these seeds
fedco finally had them again and boom...i ordered
the other pumpkin i want is the 'jam' pumpkin
that is from 'seed from italy'
i am hoping to order those seeds and putting that one out next year
i have to tell you all, the ducks have announced in their sort of quiet duck like way.....that it is really truly spring and they are very very busy making ducklings...
i think we need to extend the pen a bit..... AND put a high perch in there for serafina, to get away from falstaff when he gets too amourous....
and he seems to be getting too amourous on an hourly basis.... i would imagine any man over 25 will be very envious of that silly drake....
i want to make a nice chicken pen out there too....the girls do need to go out...and we need three more pullets ....we are out of eggs right now
bernie wants to eat the girls.....i don't think so
speaking of bernie....
he's been home now a few days from his seminar.....
and he is all upset
the dryer broke, he thinks it's a thermal fuse but he couldn't fix it yesterday
(that's ok, cause line drying is a great way to keep electric costs down)
and little calpurrnia pooped on the floor....
he got all upset at that too...
but being it was calpurrnia.... all of course is forgiven....
how could you not?
she looks up at your with them big blue eyes...and jumps into your arms and purrs like her little heart is going to explode with love
that cat can work it
bob put trish's obit up.....
what a beautiful picture of her
what a wonderful tribute to her
and i still keep trying to call her
vi
for the past two hours
however some folks with gmail have been out over 12 hours now
as that is now my primary email......i am in serious withdrawl
now in daily news, it's cold out
really cold actually.....about 22 degrees
the heat came on!
i was lazy today and slept in until 9am..... ( which a week or so ago would have only be 8am)
so the woodstove went totally (just a few live coals) out
bernie stoked it last night, i went up to bed a bit early.
i don't know why but i am tired lately
anyhow when bernie stokes the stoke, it goes out too early
i can keep it hot for at least 10 hours but somehow bernie can't seem to
i have to get back to my paper work decluttering today and also transplant seedlings
i just planted a couple more leeks and some more greens even if i have to keep the greens in flower pots on the living room windows....it's time now
i am growing a few new things this year
i am growing a salad green that also produces a sweet red berry fruit
i am growing a cape gooseberry
there are two berries from the huckleberry family, one by luther burbank.
if the seeds outside germinate, i am also growing about 10 different spinaches
and about 12 different assorted salad greens, including a few lettuces
i got a bit heavy handed with the cabbages this year.....
there must be 80 of them
so we are going to have cabbages all over the freeken place
the only pumpkin i am going to grow this year is the heirloom and extremely rare long neck pumpkin
this pumpkin looks ( when ripe) like a very overgrown zucchinni....it's dark green, except for one tiny spot where it rests on the ground....that should be orange...
if so it's ripe...cut it and cure it
and put it in storage.....over the winter it will turn orange
how cool is THAT
?
i went nuts trying to get these seeds
fedco finally had them again and boom...i ordered
the other pumpkin i want is the 'jam' pumpkin
that is from 'seed from italy'
i am hoping to order those seeds and putting that one out next year
i have to tell you all, the ducks have announced in their sort of quiet duck like way.....that it is really truly spring and they are very very busy making ducklings...
i think we need to extend the pen a bit..... AND put a high perch in there for serafina, to get away from falstaff when he gets too amourous....
and he seems to be getting too amourous on an hourly basis.... i would imagine any man over 25 will be very envious of that silly drake....
i want to make a nice chicken pen out there too....the girls do need to go out...and we need three more pullets ....we are out of eggs right now
bernie wants to eat the girls.....i don't think so
speaking of bernie....
he's been home now a few days from his seminar.....
and he is all upset
the dryer broke, he thinks it's a thermal fuse but he couldn't fix it yesterday
(that's ok, cause line drying is a great way to keep electric costs down)
and little calpurrnia pooped on the floor....
he got all upset at that too...
but being it was calpurrnia.... all of course is forgiven....
how could you not?
she looks up at your with them big blue eyes...and jumps into your arms and purrs like her little heart is going to explode with love
that cat can work it
bob put trish's obit up.....
what a beautiful picture of her
what a wonderful tribute to her
and i still keep trying to call her
vi
Sunday, March 23, 2008
it seems like time should stop
and just let folks be for a bit
but it doesn't work that way.....if anything, as soon as you think time should stop....it appears to speed up
just a random thought.
today is i believe, easter.
it is certainly spring
the ducks say so, as they are intent on making ducklings
my seedlings under lights here say so
they are huge now.......i just sowed some of them three short weeks ago
they really could be out in the garden now, if it was warmer
that is how large some of them are
i am going to start to move them onto larger pots, and sort a few of them for sale
i have a bit too many herb plants it looks like
sage, sweet marjoram, basil, anise.
thankfully this year i did not plant 100 peppers and 200 tomatoes....i showed SOME restraint
however i certainly WISH i had the garden space for that much
i planted a LOT of banana peppers, as i want to make a base with them, onions and garlic for pork, chicken and beef.
i planted some other sorts of peppers as well i need stuffers and also sweet red ones to dry
the celery is cutting celery, i hope to keep a pot of that in the house
all in all my future vegetable garden is thriving under it's lights, and i am always amazed at the tiny plants that now only fill a 2'X4' space......will grow so large as to fill not only the main garden, but the side garden and the deck garden with extras to give and sell.
those tiny little tomato plants will grow to be 10 feet tall out in the compost enriched soil
that is one of the amazing yearly miracles of spring, and one that i never get tired of
however it always makes me wish i had a greenhouse and cold frames and a much much bigger garden
but it doesn't work that way.....if anything, as soon as you think time should stop....it appears to speed up
just a random thought.
today is i believe, easter.
it is certainly spring
the ducks say so, as they are intent on making ducklings
my seedlings under lights here say so
they are huge now.......i just sowed some of them three short weeks ago
they really could be out in the garden now, if it was warmer
that is how large some of them are
i am going to start to move them onto larger pots, and sort a few of them for sale
i have a bit too many herb plants it looks like
sage, sweet marjoram, basil, anise.
thankfully this year i did not plant 100 peppers and 200 tomatoes....i showed SOME restraint
however i certainly WISH i had the garden space for that much
i planted a LOT of banana peppers, as i want to make a base with them, onions and garlic for pork, chicken and beef.
i planted some other sorts of peppers as well i need stuffers and also sweet red ones to dry
the celery is cutting celery, i hope to keep a pot of that in the house
all in all my future vegetable garden is thriving under it's lights, and i am always amazed at the tiny plants that now only fill a 2'X4' space......will grow so large as to fill not only the main garden, but the side garden and the deck garden with extras to give and sell.
those tiny little tomato plants will grow to be 10 feet tall out in the compost enriched soil
that is one of the amazing yearly miracles of spring, and one that i never get tired of
however it always makes me wish i had a greenhouse and cold frames and a much much bigger garden
Friday, March 21, 2008
the aftermath
i miss my friend
i talked to her daily
there are a few people that are such a part of my life......
that daily contact is important to me
i found that i am having trouble knitting.....picking up again
trish and i were planning on knitting a shawl and matching scarf together
and i can't face my needles or my yarn
i call her husband almost every day......
so when he comes home....
there is a blinking light on the answering machine
it isn't much i know
it is also nice to hear her voice on the answering machine, she always had such a soothing voice.....
i wish she'd gotten him the kitten she was talking about
there would be a living being for him to come home to.....that needed and loved, and depended on him
now last week, i was ill with food poisioning
this week bernie was in alabama at a ford training seminar
and i was to the doctor
i have apparently over shot that whole cholesterol thing....
with my cholesterol at 124 now
the good one is great the bad one is low
the balance is perfect but my over all numbers are getting a bit too low now
so icecream all around, suplimented, in no particular order by
steak
cheesecake
butter
eggs
more icecream
whipped cream and a cherry
i am cleaning house.....
a bit here and a bit there
but a bit EVERY DAY
getting ready for planting the garden as well
i see the ducks are planting ducklings..... i have to get out there and set up the nest so i can limit the amount of eggs she lays
i don't want to be over run
and besides i need eggs..... lots of them for baking....
i have too low of cholesterol you know.....
the cats all are mad at bernie.....
they didn't want him to come to bed
i guess they figured he abandoned them
either that or they really liked having more space in the bed.....
knowing them....it's probably the more space thing
til next time
vi
i talked to her daily
there are a few people that are such a part of my life......
that daily contact is important to me
i found that i am having trouble knitting.....picking up again
trish and i were planning on knitting a shawl and matching scarf together
and i can't face my needles or my yarn
i call her husband almost every day......
so when he comes home....
there is a blinking light on the answering machine
it isn't much i know
it is also nice to hear her voice on the answering machine, she always had such a soothing voice.....
i wish she'd gotten him the kitten she was talking about
there would be a living being for him to come home to.....that needed and loved, and depended on him
now last week, i was ill with food poisioning
this week bernie was in alabama at a ford training seminar
and i was to the doctor
i have apparently over shot that whole cholesterol thing....
with my cholesterol at 124 now
the good one is great the bad one is low
the balance is perfect but my over all numbers are getting a bit too low now
so icecream all around, suplimented, in no particular order by
steak
cheesecake
butter
eggs
more icecream
whipped cream and a cherry
i am cleaning house.....
a bit here and a bit there
but a bit EVERY DAY
getting ready for planting the garden as well
i see the ducks are planting ducklings..... i have to get out there and set up the nest so i can limit the amount of eggs she lays
i don't want to be over run
and besides i need eggs..... lots of them for baking....
i have too low of cholesterol you know.....
the cats all are mad at bernie.....
they didn't want him to come to bed
i guess they figured he abandoned them
either that or they really liked having more space in the bed.....
knowing them....it's probably the more space thing
til next time
vi
Saturday, March 08, 2008
it's all so final
i lost a close friend
suddenly
she crossed with blessed little suffering if any....
it took a breath
she was gone
her body was held to help others
many many others will benefit because this wonderful person, cared so deeply about others suffering that she gave her self.....literally gave her body to help
no greater gift is there.....
i am so devastated
reaching for the phone to call her was such a part of my life
i can't wrap my brain around it all yet
she can't be dead.....she is still in my mind and heart so very much alive
her husband is beyond devastated....... there is no way words can convey how his very soul is ripped apart and shredded
i realize we all must die
no one gets out alive
and if i were to choose my own death..... please make it FAST and sudden.....
no pain
no illness
no suffering
how could i begrudge a friend that i love the same?
yet, i am so incredibly angry..... she's taken from us too soon.....
her husband denied the years of leisured retirement they both planned and worked for
her friends denied the brightness of her laughter
today is gray and heavy rains are coming down...
seems fitting to me
even the universe seems to be crying as hard as i am at her passing
there are others that knew her, and had the same medical crisis she did.....they lived
they feel guilt for that
i am so greatful they did live..... their jobs here are not done
i would not want to have also mourned them
this is hard enough
i am worried about them...... i know that they have a purpose here.....and it is important
their very dailyness of living is part of it
i can't seem to get them to see what i see so very clearly
and i have a question.....
how is it possible for a heart to hurt so very badly...... over and over again....
and not stop beating?
how do people go on after great losses?
i am so tired of the pain of losing family and friends
yet i know..... they are still all around me.....although i can't see them
i dreamt of my friend last night
she seems happy, and healthy.....and ok over there......
is it so very selfish of me to wish......she'd never left us?
i wouldn't want her to be a vegetable..... i am not that selfish....
or her to suffer to stay.....
but i just wish this was all a bad dream.....and i would wake up now
suddenly
she crossed with blessed little suffering if any....
it took a breath
she was gone
her body was held to help others
many many others will benefit because this wonderful person, cared so deeply about others suffering that she gave her self.....literally gave her body to help
no greater gift is there.....
i am so devastated
reaching for the phone to call her was such a part of my life
i can't wrap my brain around it all yet
she can't be dead.....she is still in my mind and heart so very much alive
her husband is beyond devastated....... there is no way words can convey how his very soul is ripped apart and shredded
i realize we all must die
no one gets out alive
and if i were to choose my own death..... please make it FAST and sudden.....
no pain
no illness
no suffering
how could i begrudge a friend that i love the same?
yet, i am so incredibly angry..... she's taken from us too soon.....
her husband denied the years of leisured retirement they both planned and worked for
her friends denied the brightness of her laughter
today is gray and heavy rains are coming down...
seems fitting to me
even the universe seems to be crying as hard as i am at her passing
there are others that knew her, and had the same medical crisis she did.....they lived
they feel guilt for that
i am so greatful they did live..... their jobs here are not done
i would not want to have also mourned them
this is hard enough
i am worried about them...... i know that they have a purpose here.....and it is important
their very dailyness of living is part of it
i can't seem to get them to see what i see so very clearly
and i have a question.....
how is it possible for a heart to hurt so very badly...... over and over again....
and not stop beating?
how do people go on after great losses?
i am so tired of the pain of losing family and friends
yet i know..... they are still all around me.....although i can't see them
i dreamt of my friend last night
she seems happy, and healthy.....and ok over there......
is it so very selfish of me to wish......she'd never left us?
i wouldn't want her to be a vegetable..... i am not that selfish....
or her to suffer to stay.....
but i just wish this was all a bad dream.....and i would wake up now
Friday, March 07, 2008
new beginings
my seeds are up
i planted them....had faith in mother nature and i am now welcoming them into the world
i need another flourscent light for them though
i will get that today as well as do town chores
bernie has to go to school in two weeks, he'll be gone i believe 4 days and 3 nights
he is concerned about me being here alone.
we will heap wood on the deck....
give the ducks WAY extra food, just in case we get a storm
georgie up the hill checked her schedule to make sure they are around
and a few other people told me.....if i need anything let them know
i figure i will just have to be a bit more careful
and as long as i do'nt fall in the garden again it should be ok
now..... i have to tell you folks
a friend of mine is very ill
i am extremely worried as i don't know too much except she is in the hospital and it's serious
when i worry i get distracted
and i may not remember to post
i will however clean the house
and i will talk on the phone almost nonstop while doing it
that's how i worry
now when she gets better and reads this......she will of course stop speaking to me
but let me tell you.... i would rather she DOES make it and stop speaking to me....
then cross over
and T when you read this....and YOU had better get well enough to.....or i swear i will haunt you in heaven....
just remember
you are loved
vi
i planted them....had faith in mother nature and i am now welcoming them into the world
i need another flourscent light for them though
i will get that today as well as do town chores
bernie has to go to school in two weeks, he'll be gone i believe 4 days and 3 nights
he is concerned about me being here alone.
we will heap wood on the deck....
give the ducks WAY extra food, just in case we get a storm
georgie up the hill checked her schedule to make sure they are around
and a few other people told me.....if i need anything let them know
i figure i will just have to be a bit more careful
and as long as i do'nt fall in the garden again it should be ok
now..... i have to tell you folks
a friend of mine is very ill
i am extremely worried as i don't know too much except she is in the hospital and it's serious
when i worry i get distracted
and i may not remember to post
i will however clean the house
and i will talk on the phone almost nonstop while doing it
that's how i worry
now when she gets better and reads this......she will of course stop speaking to me
but let me tell you.... i would rather she DOES make it and stop speaking to me....
then cross over
and T when you read this....and YOU had better get well enough to.....or i swear i will haunt you in heaven....
just remember
you are loved
vi
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
oh most wonderous shredder
thou hast dazzled me with thy brilliance
i love my shredder
where has it BEEN my whole life
i take one bad memory in the form of a letter
SNNNNNNNNNNNNNZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
and it's confetti!
amazing
i like to see the little basket fill up
i am next going to burn it all in the bbq
talk about fun
now
that being said....paper work SUCKS
did i say that already? ........well if so it bares repeating
PAPER WORK SUCKS
no that does not make me feel better...
but that shredder sure does..... i can almost understand the fascination men have with them chippers.....
and the SHREDDER even does CREDIT CARDS
that's the BEST
as i had them all laying around for years.....expired ones that i didn't know what to do with
zoooooooooooooooooommmssssssssssssss
through the shredder
it's MAGIC
and the noise is pretty cool too
vi
til next time
i love my shredder
where has it BEEN my whole life
i take one bad memory in the form of a letter
SNNNNNNNNNNNNNZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
and it's confetti!
amazing
i like to see the little basket fill up
i am next going to burn it all in the bbq
talk about fun
now
that being said....paper work SUCKS
did i say that already? ........well if so it bares repeating
PAPER WORK SUCKS
no that does not make me feel better...
but that shredder sure does..... i can almost understand the fascination men have with them chippers.....
and the SHREDDER even does CREDIT CARDS
that's the BEST
as i had them all laying around for years.....expired ones that i didn't know what to do with
zoooooooooooooooooommmssssssssssssss
through the shredder
it's MAGIC
and the noise is pretty cool too
vi
til next time
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