what to knit, what to knit???

i was up most of the night, partly because it was so hot upstairs, partly cause i was trying to decide what to knit and partly from the usual list of worries......( i don't know why i worry so much, half of what i worry about never happens)

i am considering andrea's shawl  (most likely this solid variation in pink though)  or jaali , which i accidentally ordered yarn for at 2am............. (but the yarn is dream in color starry, with the silver running through it.....so i can be forgiven i think for not resisting that ...especially when i was worried at 2am*** see yarn porn photo's below)

damask is about dry from it's blocking
it looks great, the texture isn't easy to see with the variegation's in the yarn, but it made my heart sing while i knit it.....and that knitting zone is what every knitter wants no?
the perfect knit......over and over, isn't that partly why we do it?
sure we need mittens and scarves and hats and sweaters....... but then why are we drooling over colors that would put a rainbow to shame......any solid color would work.....or no color.......
nope
we use it to feed the soul
so i hope the next knit is just as fabulously perfect-and i think i have that partly planned

another thing that kept me up all night was wondering, what would it be like if a person could really step outside themselves and see their lives from a totally unbiased perspective? but not just the surface of a life, that's visible to everyone outside of our skins, but also privy to the inner thinking... watching our selves think......hearing the thoughts? actually seeing the motivations that drive us.........how much would we change? what would we keep, or toss?
i would like to see something like that..........i think it would be helpful to how a person conducts themselves and lives their life. (another example of what i think about at 2am)

sleep deprivation will do amazing things to your head you know......

now another thing was malcom.....he's giving me lip just like thumbprint did.....not as bad but still a bit aggressively warning me off.....yesterday he pecked at me from inside the crate.
so we'll see. i don't want to challenge him too much without backup here, he IS a big guy now....not nearly as big as falstaff but not a weak little girl i can just swoop up either.....
he's pecking a bit at the herding stick too so i've taken to bringing that and a shovel out with me to the herd him to the pens
he asserts himself by not going in at first
and wandering the garden until he's assured himself that there isn't any back door to allow him to escape to go back to the girls.

the new neighbors have a large dog.......i thought i heard barking.
i did
and last night they couldn't get that large dog in the house.........(while the guy was trying to hide from me and not let me see him.......good be very afraid)
the dog comes here i am going to pitch fork it
as much as i won't want to
i want my ducks safe more
i told bernie that the new neighbors were friends with the old, as the jackass' wife was there early yesterday morning----no doubt to dump shit in our yard

ok, drinking coffee with you all this morning (mine is currently in a 32 oz mug......)
hey, garylynn, you need to get the rain from MO and KY as those folks are flooded.....they sure could use a hand with that, actually wait a bit and they may float on down to you all
vicki, i thought you folks were warmer out there? and you all need to send some down to texas too.
catherine, i wish i could get a deal on mushrooms like that i would be drying POUNDAGE.......
you know......we haven't heard from flicka in a while have we?
donald checked in.........who else is forgetting to check in?
( and you all know who yous are)

today looks like there won't be rain, however i think now i need it for the seedlings in the garden
(why no i am never happy it would seem but then mother natures is having her PMS so how could i be?)

i am also intent on blocking aeolian today...... as well as choosing my next knit, and hopefully maybe starting the next drawing-
speaking of drawing, i am waiting patiently for two easels to go on sale, one a tabletop and one an out door easel......i so long to paint with my ducks, and i think i need to retire my drafting table out of the studio for a while......much as that would pain me.

however if the weather is going to be good i need to spray that chandelier cream and start covering it with the toile i got for it.
(and i saw a mini toile at hobby lobby for 16.00 a yard that would actually work better then the one i got......and one yard would so do it.....all this for an 8.00 chandie?)

so how was everyone's holidays and what all are you folks up to this fine day?